Wednesday, July 30, 2014
Mirror Mirror on the wall who is the fairest of them all !!! Words we use to play with when we were children before the fear and disdain for the mirror took over. As a morbidly obese person I can tell you spent 20 plus years trying every way in the world not to see myself. It has taken a long time to get to a point where i look in the mirror.
Yesterday at the gym I turned the corner and saw me in a full length mirror and I stopped and just looked at me . No my body is not perfect it has the signs of years of self abuse however, it also has now a couple of years of self love. I stood there looking and thinking what am i suppose to think of you. this is what i came up with.
My body is strong and confident . I no longer have just a round obese tired body I have a core , breast thighs hips a rear. yes I am still obese but I dont see that any longer I see the results of hard work and determination. In the three years i have been doing the life change I have asked my body to do somethings that no it didnt like but it has held up . My mind through injuries illness and depression has not given up and said I can not do this it holds firm to the belief that it is possible to reach my goals no matter how long it takes.
So mirror mirror who is the fairest in the land " well you are Darlene " . It all comes down to what you belief and tell yourself is possible. Your body and the world will only do what you portray to it. You can exercise to death and you can eat all the right foods and drink gallons of water but if you hold to self doubt and self hate then nothing will ever change. There are plenty out that will dislike you and beat you down your body and mind doesnt need you to do also .