Friday, July 25, 2014
During my teen years, I was a very active, social person. Playing high school sports, enjoying boating, skiing, tubing, swimming...spending a lot of time with family and friends.
In my early 20's, my only ambition was to find a man to love me (all of me) and get married. I didn't think about my job, my fitness, buying a house...nothing besides getting married. At age 23, I found my soul mate and we married at age 25.
My late 20's and thru my 30's was all about having babies and buying a family home. By age 26, we had our first house and our baby boy. Age 28, we had our baby girl. At this time, work and babies was all my life. Very little-to-no socializing and there was no time to think of "me". With the babies and moving between jobs, it was a challenging time in my marriage. We struggled through finances, day care, job changes, elementary school expectation, church expectations, buying a bigger house; and we succeeded through these challenges. My marriage was slowly improving, but, again there was no time in the day for my socializing, fitness or health concerns. I became a "home-body", exhausted all the time with no motivation for myself.
I'm now in my middle 40's. My kids are in high school, my son is now driving and my daughter is soon to be driving. Still a hectic daily schedule with my work and the kid's activities, but a better hectic...a fun hectic. My job is not so much a happy, self-fulfilling part of my day, but my kids and spending time with my hubby are what I live for. I also have a bit of time to spend on myself. I'm not trying to control what my hubby is or is not doing around the house. I've finally learned to just let him do his own thing and accept him as he is...no more trying to change him. And, this has been better for me. I was spending so much emotional time trying to get him to do things the way "I" wanted and that wasn't right. So we are at a much better loving place in our marriage...again.
So now I'm going back to myself, enjoying the outdoors and being active. I can't say it's easy, I've been away from it for so long, and I am really looking forward to the next 12 weeks as I go through a transforming plan for myself. I'm setting small daily goals and my 17 year old son is going to be my personal motivator. He will be helping me stay on track and working with me on my weight lifting program. He is also helping me with my meals as he too is working on a meal program. His is a bit different than mine, but we are doing it together.