Thursday, July 24, 2014
I'm on a stress busting challenge and I'm not sure how I'm gonna de-stress with a 4 yr old running around giving me the most stress of anything in my life. I'm 52 yrs. old and don't have any business raising a 4 yr old especially when her mother is gonna come back and mess up what I've tried to do with her. Not that I'm getting very far. She is ADHD and I can't keep up with her. I tried to get her into counseling because she was acting out very badly because she was having separation anxiety. Then behaving badly talking back, hitting herself when we put her into the corner, smacking herself when we punished her sitting her on the couch. I'm at the end of my rope with her discipline everything we try to do she turns into games she doesn't get that there not games but punishment. So I figure out the right punishment and that would help take a big stressor off me. I'm not saying she isn't a delight at times if it wasn't for taking care of her when my husband passed away this April I'd of probably fallen apart.
The only other stressor I have is having my adult children living with me. They need to be on their own by now but my son I believe feels he needs to take care of me. Then my daughter is living with me because she is on social security and doesn't make enough to pay rent on these apartments that expect you to practically buy them with the rent. So I can't just throw her out without knowing she can afford it we can't seem to find anything that she can afford.
It's just like my life is not my own. I have no say in what goes on. My therapist says I need to learn to say no that's easier said than done cause I don't say no to anything which I know I shouldn't do but it's hard for me to do that.
So I'm working on destressing my life. How I'm not sure but this is a start.