In July I took a detour that I didn't intend on. But, I assure you it IS a detour and not a dead-end street. On the fourth of July I reached a milestone. I got down to 178 pounds and was successfully halfway done losing weight. But, I also ran out of my depression, mania, and migraine medication and the prescriptions were out of refills. I mistakenly thought I had to wait until I saw my doctor on the 24th in order to renew the prescriptions. So, I wasn't taking any medication. This went disastrously, as you would expect. I slipped into a very dark depression and lacked any kind of energy or motivation. I lost all interest in all activities that I had once been so pumped about. I had been losing weight at a great pace before, but without meds I suddenly started going in the opposite direction. I gained ten pounds and didn't want to take any exercise anymore, I just wanted to stay in bed. The only thing I could manage was watching episodes of Game of Thrones and re-reading the book. My emails piled up and I never logged into Sparkpeople. I avoided everything. My grandmother noticed my newfound lack of interest in my weight loss efforts and asked me if I'd been taking my medication and I told her how my prescription had run out. She insisted I call the pharmacy and I told her I was going to wait until I saw my psychiatrist because it was only a few days. She said I absolutely couldn't wait any longer because I wasn't doing well at all. I argued with her even though I knew she was right. The next day she called the pharmacy and they faxed my psychiatrist. He filled the prescription right away and my grandpa went and picked my pills. After the second day of taking my pills I'm now feeling 100% better already and getting myself back on track.
I ended up having to withdraw from the couple of weight loss challenges that I had been in because I neglected to sign in to them for so long, but that may be for the best because I have a lot of work ahead of me in getting these ten pounds down and getting back on the journey again, but I am enthusiastic about it and I know that if I commit to it, I can definitely get the weight off in the next month or two. Then I will be halfway once again and I can work from there! So, really, it is not the end of the world, and not such a big deal as I was thinking it was when I was in the midst of it. It's a setback, true, but there are worse things and at least I am getting back on track now before I gained any more weight. And I have a renewed sense of commitment and energy now.
I can only think, what is in store for me in August? My birthday is coming up and we are planning a trip to Walt Disney World in September. I am determined to lose a few pounds for that because we will be going by airplane and I want to be sure that I will fit in the seats! Not to mention the rides. I want to be able to enjoy the trip as much as possible and not be worried the whole time about my size. So, it's important to me to be able to get down a few more pounds. At least back down to 178 where I was. And I believe I can do it. As much weight as I've lost so far and as far as I've come with as much ambition as I've had, I know that this is really just a fluke and I know the reasoning for it. I will be sure not to go without my medication again! And of course now I know if my prescription runs out I can just have the pharmacy fax my doctor. Which I really should've just tried to begin with. But, we live and learn I suppose. And now I've learned a valuable lesson about how easily one can regain weight and lose ground. It will be something for me to keep in mind when I am done losing weight and start maintaining.
It's good to learn these lessons early so that we can modify our behaviour, I think. To become wiser. I've certainly learned that I need to stick with Sparkpeople if I'm going to succeed. To start using Sparkcoach. And I need to track my food! When I stopped doing those things, I started gaining the weight again. I know what tools to utilize in order to make progress and it's important not to stray. And it's also important to keep on going. To not give up. The only way to get to where I want to go is if I take advantage of every opportunity that comes my way and keep forging ahead. Success happens through trial and error.
And I think the most successful people are the ones who fail the most because they are always out there trying. I may have come up against a little bump in the road, but now I am learning about the things that don't work in my life. It's an opportunity for me to see what's not working for me and if I'm clever, I'll take advantage of the chance to change it.
So, for August I am going to begin ahead and start on a brand new path. I'm going to revise all my goals and change the things in my life that aren't working for me. A fresh start.
After all, the path to success isn't the straight line that people imagine it is. It's more like this:
And it's never too late to be fit, to be healthy, to be the best of you.