Tuesday, July 22, 2014
I have been working hard at being and staying positive. I read all the Spark messages and keep up with all my wonderful teammates. Soaking in all the encouragement that I can. I thought I had it! I was doing everything I had planned and I know I would succeed!
Well, last night I hiccupped! I woke up at 3 am and wanted to eat. So in order to distract myself I went on SparkPeople. I was on it for about an hour and I lost the war my stomach was waging. Not really my stomach, because I wasn't really hungry. But I had a slice of bread with peanut butter and instantly regretted it.
So today I beat myself up. I was weak, had no willpower and cheated myself. All over one slice of bread with peanut butter. But Pam made me realize how much overkill I was doing. Thank you Pam.
There is such a thing as getting too carried away with losing weight. When you hate yourself for something you would not expect of anyone else. I have come around from my low self esteem today. For myself I will have patience, perserverence and persistence. I will keep up with my tracking of food and fitness. But I will be kinder to myself. After all, I have people that care for me as me! Thanks to my teammates for their encouragement!