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Tuesday, July 22, 2014

I have been working hard at being and staying positive. I read all the Spark messages and keep up with all my wonderful teammates. Soaking in all the encouragement that I can. I thought I had it! I was doing everything I had planned and I know I would succeed!

Well, last night I hiccupped! I woke up at 3 am and wanted to eat. So in order to distract myself I went on SparkPeople. I was on it for about an hour and I lost the war my stomach was waging. Not really my stomach, because I wasn't really hungry. But I had a slice of bread with peanut butter and instantly regretted it.

So today I beat myself up. I was weak, had no willpower and cheated myself. All over one slice of bread with peanut butter. But Pam made me realize how much overkill I was doing. Thank you Pam.

There is such a thing as getting too carried away with losing weight. When you hate yourself for something you would not expect of anyone else. I have come around from my low self esteem today. For myself I will have patience, perserverence and persistence. I will keep up with my tracking of food and fitness. But I will be kinder to myself. After all, I have people that care for me as me! Thanks to my teammates for their encouragement! emoticon
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  • v TATTER3
    Protein and a carb...not a horrible choice at all...just keep Sparkin'!!
    676 days ago
    You inspired me today because I have had so many hiccups in my 90 pound loss, and even now, I keep drifting back and forth between the high 8o's and 90 pounds.
    But it's OK. I keep mozzarella string cheese sticks on hand for a satisfying 60 calorie snack that's filling ,because its protein, and chewy. You did good with only one slice of peanut butter bread!!
    By the way, when a baby or anyone hiccups, what do we do for them? We pat them on the back and comfort them. Can we do less for ourselves? Oh, and since we have so much in common, I hope its OK that I "friended" you. emoticon
    676 days ago
    I've never had that problem of eating during the night time, but I would if I could, Alice. I have way too much trouble with reflux to be able to eat very late and into the night, but I sure would have done it if I could. Evenings are especially hard for me, but what you learned about yourself is so valuable. No one can be perfect. No one can do it right all the time. No will escape hiccups along the way, so you are doing exactly the right thing: MOVING FORWARD! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    677 days ago
  • v JILL313
    Alice, Believe me we all eat when we're not even all that hungry. Having some peanut butter bread is at least healthy. . .if I "beat" myself up every time I overate and ate when it was all emotional eating I'd be "Black & Blue". Treat yourself kind as you would a good friend. All this is new to you so it's all very understandable as it does take time to be strong even when our cravings are calling our name. I'm so glad you're in the WL Challenge with us. I especially eat when I'm tired, stressed, upset, etc. so it's a constant problem I have. I've been on Spark for 4 years and I'm still learning more about myself & what works and what doesn't. So please be patient with yourself. If your on the Chair Exercise Team the Leader of it is starting a series in September about Self-Esteem and believe I'm going to do what I can to do well on it. I believe many of us have low self-esteem as we're all dealing with a Weight problem that might make us feel bad about ourselves & our lack of self control when it comes to food. I know I'm a Food Addict. . .So glad you're right where you want to be, WTG!!

    Hugs & Love,

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    678 days ago
    That's the ticket Alice. To keep perserving. I have hiccupped two days in a row now and am not very happy about it. BUT TODAY IS A NEW DAY, RIGHT?!!!?

    take care
    678 days ago

    So interesting, I also had bread with peanut butter last night when I wasn't hungry,
    and because I just let it go without condemning myself I actually had a good day today.

    Be kind to yourself, friend!

    678 days ago
  • v HAWTGRANNY2014
    Alice, I had a down day today...we all do. I wrote a blog about it. I am trying to face the whys that I overeat but if it was just a slice of bread with peanut butter I would be happy, When I splurge it is much more. You are not alone in fighting this addiction to food. it is a hard habit to break and we have to take it one day at a time and slowly win.
    The evening is my worst too. I have a hard time sleeping all night.

    You can do this. I know I can too. It may take us a little longer than some but that's ok. hugs,
    678 days ago
    Alice, we will ALL give in from time to time on something we "shouldn't" have...but the key is to not let it de-rail us and to get right back on the track! One day at a time, one decision at a time.... the key is to just make more "right" decisions today than you did yesterday... things WILL keep getting better. (It doesn't matter how SLOW you go, but just that you DO NOT STOP!) emoticon
    678 days ago
  • v SPEDED2
    In one of the SparkPeople articles I read this morning, it stated that we should make friends with failure. It continued that we are all human; we all fail sometime as none of us is perfect. Progress toward our goal, not perfection, is our aim.

    Easy to say. Very difficult to follow. Everyone of us has had this experience in one way or another. Thank you for sharing.

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    678 days ago

    Comment edited on: 7/22/2014 6:09:02 PM
    Take one day at a time. So glad you have a great support network.
    678 days ago
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