Since Christmas vacation, the kitchen chair next to mine held a steadily growing stack of magazines. Finally, school has ended, and I spend my mornings reading while I enjoy my leisurely cups of coffee. In June, an article in Prevention really caught my attention. The author had lost a tremendous amount of weight and she attributed her success to Spark People and the resources and support she found there. The article was marked for reference, and later, while at the computer, I decided to check out this Spark People site. After going through the steps to create an account, no one could be more surprised than I, when discovered I already had an account. The site sent a password reset and I entered...
My page (there sure wasnít much there!) states that I joined Spark People on 10 September 2012. Not true. An account may have been created, but I didnít join anything. My warped thinking probably was, ďIf I create an account, I will lose weight.Ē Nothing in my thinking included a commitment to myself or doing any of the work. I have a friend who joined Weight Watchers. After a meeting, she will lament, ďI go to meetings. I donít understand why I donít lose weight.Ē She does not work the program. I digress.
It was on 30 June 2014, that I really joined Spark People! There were a couple of teams on my page from before, but I have no recollection of welcome. So...I went in search for a team that had similarities to my life. And. I found it. I roamed around Spark People and signed up for anything that was offered: health emails, recipe emails, blogs, anything to give me motivation to stick with some kind of program. The next morning, I was back again. Checking some of the links for this team (from here on referred to as ďmy teamĒ) I found a comment from one of the leaders. A huge welcome, but she couldnít find my page. She wanted to find my page? Really? So I went to my page and changed some settings. During this process, I discovered I could add some things to my page. As others reached out, and I visited their pages, I discovered I could add pictures, colors, backgrounds, I could change my status ~ everyday if I wanted.
At first, I didnít interact much. But with each small post I made, I would find positive comments about my post. I wasnít sure if I was supposed to join conversations, so I just read them. Stalking? Maybe. I like to think of it as learning. And I have learned...so much...and I continue to learn everyday. Tracking my food has shown me the dangerous foods that cause my calorie intake to sky-rocket. In turn, Iím learning about portion control and that I donít have to give anything up, just have smaller amounts. The number on the scale has gone down and my clothes are looser. The very best part of this remarkable site is the marvelous people on my team who make the same journey as I. My self-esteem has grown exponentially!
What happened? Who knows? I had a bad day, binged, felt like a failure and quit. I had a busy day and just didnít have time. More than likely though, it was because I expected to lose weight just by creating an account. Ugh! I can sit in a garage for a week, but I still wonít be a car. This time. This time I think Iím going to make it. When I have a bad day, my team will be there to offer kind words and support. When I have a great day, my team will be there to cheer me on. Prayer, faith, support, and friends those are what is happening now.