I noticed that I haven't blogged in over two YEARS. I've never been much of a blogger, but sometimes I do feel the need to get my thoughts down in writing.
This year started with me resetting my goals, getting plenty of sleep, focusing on consistency, adding in new technology (BodyMedia LINK) to help get back to my goal weight. I busted my butt for months. Measuring, weighing, counting and tracking all of my food, compulsively at times. Even on days I didn't track my food, I had my armband there to tell me how many calories I had burned so I could consciously make sure I was still on track. Most of the days I didn't track was due to being so active – like doing heavy yardwork or gardening for the greater part of a day. There were days that I burned around 2500 calories, but my average was around 2,000 even if I didn't workout that day. I got back into running when I could and completed my second Dirty Girl Mud Run 5k in June. I ran with my sister, which was awesome.
But then I QUIT. I didn't quit in a fed-up, out of frustration kind of way though. I quit in a very deliberate way. I had been working so hard and counting calories for months. The numbers were showing that I should have been losing a pound a week, for months. Despite all of the "data," I had actually GAINED a pound over those months. I guess I now understand the frustration of a plateau! The reason I quit was because I was stressing so much over the constant tracking and worrying that I didn't think it was good for my health either. So I put my armband away in a drawer, didn't visit SparkPeople much, didn't fret about measuring, weighing, counting and tracking all of my food... I relaxed, ate more donuts than I have in the past 10 years combined, went on ice cream dates with my hubby, spent time meditating in the garden instead of working out, avoided working out altogether for the last month, tried to spend more time with family and friends...
On a whim, I weighed myself this morning and had lost a couple of pounds!
I'm going to get back on the horse and try to get my butt in gear, but this serves as a reminder to myself about how unhealthy stress can be. Don't fret over eating a couple extra almonds, or craving a donut. I have to remember to enjoy life. Calories in / calories out is way too simplified of a concept for reality.
I'm looking forward to eating lots of fresh veggies from the garden that we've worked so hard in this year. I'd love to lose another few pounds, but I'm realizing all of the goals, tracking, etc. may be too regimented for me. I need to lighten up and remember to reward myself with donuts occasionally.
Have a great week Sparkers!