To Focus or Not Focus...that is the question
Friday, July 18, 2014
And the answer is...not focusing makes you get off course. You trip up, you fall...but you know what? You can get back up again!
I started SparkPeople in December 2012. My highest weight had been 234. At the time I signed up I weighed 228. I had been told that my blood pressure was starting to stay elevated. I had minor knee surgery. I had no stamina. I had visions of my father, who towards the end of his life suffered from high blood pressure, congestive heart failure, and borderline diabetes. He could hardly do anything. He could walk, but used a wheelchair for any kind of distance. Then there was my mom, who stayed active and fit all her life. Cancer took her life, but she stayed active until the day she died. Here I was about to turn 60. How did I want my last years to look like...my father's or my mother's? That answer was easy...I had to change.
I used Spark Coach to guide me through that first year and I stayed focused for the first half of the year. I actually dipped to having lost 50 pounds...weighing 178, but my average, and a midyear plateau had me hanging around 182. Not bad....but not where I needed...or wanted...to be. I was no longer shopping in the Women's department. I was out of the "obese" category, and I was wearing a size 16. But we had a tragedy in the family and I lost focus.
We can always find excuses and blame this and that. I was in and out of SparkPeople and off and on with exercise and tracking my food. I learned how to eat correctly and doing that most of the time, and I was more active because I was not so overweight, but I was not moving towards my goal. In fact, I was creeping back up the scale.
When I read SparkGuy's blog about his personal stress when his mother was ill and what he did to keep at least 10 minutes a day in his schedule, it made me think. Everyone has struggles. Life happens. But you can't lose sight of what is best for your health. I needed to focus and get back on track. So where was I?
I am currently at 195 pounds. ouch!!! BUT I can still fit in my size 16 jeans...though they are snug. I am NOT going to shop for a larger size. I am NOT going to see 200 on my scale again. I am re-focused. In my email I saw a link to a walking plan and I have started it this week. I just completed day 4. It is a 28-day plan. I WILL do all 28 days...that will get me started. I am starting to track my food, but not completely. That is about to change. I am going to get more consistent with that. What worked for me before will work again.
I think about my friends, family, and people in the community who have seen the improvement in me as I lost weight. Some have even started their own plan to get healthy because they saw me making changes. I don't want to let them down. I don't want to let ME down.
So...I am choosing to be FOCUSED.