Friday, July 18, 2014
Even at 24 and having been in the healthy weight range of the BMI chart for a year and half, I still have loose skin and noticeable stretch marks.
I sometimes feel like maybe I looked better with the extra weight occupying the skin, but I know I'm happier and healthier now.
How long does one wait before seriously considering surgery? I take vitamin E, use calendula salve, drink water, strength train, and do cardio almost every day. I've noticed a difference in my skin, but I it feels disappointing, because it isn't happening as quickly as I expected.
Working so hard, only to feel uncomfortable in my skin in a brand new way, is a bit hard to accept.
Sometimes I feel like I'm wearing a second, baggy skin, that I'm trapped in/being weighed down by.
Honestly, all of the work has still been worth it. I'm much happier and more confident than I ever was growing up. It's just hard to accept that I thunder & shake more than my peers who have been thin all their lives.
I can't wear shorts without thinking about my thighs jiggling. I wouldn't dare wear a bikini without a cover up. I can't image being care-free in my own skin.
So it looks like I still have plenty to work on and a long way to go. The number on the scale means so much less with this new perspective. Yes, I want to get to a new goal of 119 after spending some time at 125. I'm more concerned about lowering my body-fat percentage though.