Thursday, May 24, 2007
Life is what we make of it, right? I find that to be so true, and one of my new goals is to always make the best of things and to quit being so negative. I'm definitely not what you would call an "eternal optimist." People like that drive me nuts, lol. I like to think of myself as a realist. But, I do think that you get back what you put out there, and I'm going to try to be more positive. Things are going well now. I'm 2 pounds away from my original goal of 150 (actually, my original goal was 50 lbs, so I hit that weeks ago). I don't think I can get to 145 by my wedding, but that's okay. I will get there. I feel great, I look great. I bought a string bikini for our honeymoon the other day. There's a little nasty action going on in the back under my butt, but whatever. I'm over 30 now, so I guess that's par for the course. I'll keep working on the toning and firming, but if I have a little jiggle in my wiggle, it's not the end of the world.
My amazing, wonderful fiance surprised me this week. Since losing this weight, I have a lot of saggy skin around my eyes and wrinkles have popped up out of nowhere, seeminly overnight. It has become an obsession. I've spent hundreds and hundreds of dollars on products trying to make them go away. I think even more so than my body, I need for my face to be beautiful. So, I came across this medical spa in town and I was lusting for one of their treatment packages, but I know with our $30,000 wedding just weeks away, it would be very selfish of me to pay the money for the spa. But, my lovey came downstairs on Tuesday and said he had just gotten off the phone with the medical spa and that his wedding gift to me would be the package that I want. Knock me over with a feather! He's been all over me lately about not obsessing about my looks, that I'm beautiful the way I am, and that I need to accept the fact that I'm going to age and a few wrinkles aren't the end of the world. So I was shocked that he would do this for me. I asked him what I could possibly get him for a wedding gift that would be as good and he said he didn't want anything, that if I was happy with myself that would be present enough for him. God, I love him. He's so great to me. He is most definitely the stronger of the two of us. So, I went yesterday for my consultation at the spa and I am so excited. With only 2 weeks to the wedding, I can't do anything too aggressive, but I am getting vibradermabrasion, a medical facial, and a glycolic peel. They said it would even out my skin tone, get rid of the bumps and spots, shrink my pores and make my skin glow for my big day. I can't wait. I go for the first treatment this afternoon. I'm seriously considering botox for around my eyes. You just have no idea how losing weight has changed my face. It's not good. I used to be pretty against cosmetic procedures myself, thinking that it's all a part of our country's obsession with beauty and the way that we put excessive pressure on women to be beautiful on the outside and not consider them on the inside. However, I just need to do this for myself. This may be a rationalization but I don't care. I'm not getting plastic surgery, just a little cosmetic dermatology. C'est la vie!