Long road back
Thursday, July 17, 2014
Well, I have been making some healthy changes this week. It's been a long while since I have tried thinking about healthy food, water or exercise. I have a horribly long way to go, but in some ways I have proven a little bit to myself with just trying to trim my portions and drink more water (less soda) and walk on the treadmill. I'm trying walking with incline instead of running. Hopefully I can work my way up.
I am very extremely blessed. A lady from my church donated several bags of clothes to me. Many still have the tags on them. The tops fit pretty well, but would fit better if I were a little more toned. I am determined to fit into the pants. The funny thing is that they aren't that small. In fact, I used to wear those sizes a lot until I just let myself go. I want to benefit from her blessing. I can't afford a lot of clothes and I think wearing some of these would help me feel better about myself. My school district does put an emphasis on what you look like. The clothes I wear now were given to me by my great aunt who passed away several years ago. And while many of those clothes are fine, they are not current fashion or look the best on me. I don't want to talk about the clothes given to me by my under 5' sister in law who is built as the exact opposite of me. Nice folks with nice intentions. Maybe I can gift these clothes to someone else in need.
Here I go on another journey. I'm not going with anyone, any group, any contest or anything in particular. I kinda want to do this by myself to prove to myself how strong I am. Yes, I realize that more people fail when by themselves, but I think I need to do this alone (with the electronic help of SparkPeople excluded). :)