Praying helps,, really
Thursday, July 17, 2014
I am sorry if I was a downer yesterday, but I actually did go to bed after reading that mail I got .. It was either lie down and stay home, or drive to the state capitol and rub out the person who callously denied me benefits.
Between that and thinking about interviewing hospice companies and nurses for mom, being without meds, this week was swirling right down the toilet with my hope and usual way to find something good about a bad situation..
Sometimes things just pile up and are too much to bear. Without my heart meds, diabetes med, unable to take the pain med, I took the chickens way out and went to bed.
Little does that woman in Lansing know, her life was in my hands yesterday. I was honestly going to drive down there(one hour drive) and do something bad enough to go to prison. In the back of my mind, all I could think of was,"At least I will finally have health coverage if I go to jail!" I now know that is how it works:If you work, offer to pay, and are a law abiding person, you are so on your own. Wipe out a family of five from a rooftop and you have all the freebies you can ever want.
Lesson for the month(for life,hopefully): We live on God's timetable, not ours.
Today after work, after I stopped and prayed, begged for a morsel from HIM, I showered, drove back to the office again and told them I was going to call my Congressman next. They gave me a complaint card, helped me do the whole shebang all over again.. One worker told me some wrong info, so I drove all the way home(15 miles) to get the wrong paperwork.. next worker gave me the right information, so I finally got home four hours later and called the place I needed some recent financial info from. They will fax it to me immediately and it will be ready to fax a worker when they call me within the next week or so.
I refused to just add the info on the one I had because it would mean staying with the lackey worker I waited all this time to hear from..She waited the full 45 days...When her paper came t o me, she had already denied me LAST MONTH!
Now that I stepped aside, listened to HIM, things turned for me, not against me.
Am I thick-headed or what?