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Thursday, July 17, 2014

I am sorry if I was a downer yesterday, but I actually did go to bed after reading that mail I got .. It was either lie down and stay home, or drive to the state capitol and rub out the person who callously denied me benefits.
Between that and thinking about interviewing hospice companies and nurses for mom, being without meds, this week was swirling right down the toilet with my hope and usual way to find something good about a bad situation..

Sometimes things just pile up and are too much to bear. Without my heart meds, diabetes med, unable to take the pain med, I took the chickens way out and went to bed.

Little does that woman in Lansing know, her life was in my hands yesterday. I was honestly going to drive down there(one hour drive) and do something bad enough to go to prison. In the back of my mind, all I could think of was,"At least I will finally have health coverage if I go to jail!" I now know that is how it works:If you work, offer to pay, and are a law abiding person, you are so on your own. Wipe out a family of five from a rooftop and you have all the freebies you can ever want.

Lesson for the month(for life,hopefully): We live on God's timetable, not ours.

Today after work, after I stopped and prayed, begged for a morsel from HIM, I showered, drove back to the office again and told them I was going to call my Congressman next. They gave me a complaint card, helped me do the whole shebang all over again.. One worker told me some wrong info, so I drove all the way home(15 miles) to get the wrong paperwork.. next worker gave me the right information, so I finally got home four hours later and called the place I needed some recent financial info from. They will fax it to me immediately and it will be ready to fax a worker when they call me within the next week or so.

I refused to just add the info on the one I had because it would mean staying with the lackey worker I waited all this time to hear from..She waited the full 45 days...When her paper came t o me, she had already denied me LAST MONTH!

Now that I stepped aside, listened to HIM, things turned for me, not against me.

Am I thick-headed or what?
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    Please don't feel you need to apologize; sometimes you just need to vent and let it out, and we are hear to listen and to support you! emoticon

    As for being thick headed, sometimes we have to be to get things done!

    I will keep you in my prayers.
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  • GABY1948
    HE will NEVER let us down but I understand what you are saying here. I was so bummed last night at reading that rejection yet again! You are so right about all you say about our country!

    I am so glad you went right back to them And going to your congressman was not thick headed...it was brilliant! emoticon remember to pray FIRST next time!

    1342 days ago
    Don't give up but give it to the Lord. He can open doors for you.
    We go through unnecessary in our eyes Dr appointments for our daughter just to make the insurance company happy thst is supposed to be taking care of her medical needs due to our accident we were in in Jan of 94. We were rear ended by a semi
    Totaling our car and causing our 2nd who was 9 at the time to have every bone in her sweet face broken thus a lifetime of majir surgeries has been in her life for 20 yrs now.
    1342 days ago
    You are right to keep fighting the "system." Good luck to you in your efforts, and I'm glad prayer helped you to think more clearly about the situation. It is definitely frustrating!
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    So happy you seem to be making some headway. It's so horrible how people can be so callous...to them it's just a 9-5 job and like you say...they are holding YOUR life in their uncaring hands.

    This is worse for you because of the stress of your mother...just remember it's mostly the challenge of getting to the RIGHT person...and....eventually... navigating through the bureaucrat's cesspool you will.

    I honestly think they make things as hard on us as they can for a REASON...but you are tough and durable...you WON'T give up....I'm cheering you on and praying for your success! emoticon emoticon
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    Comment edited on: 7/18/2014 7:56:16 AM
    Government bureaucrasy can drive us crazy! And go ahead and contact your congressman's office---they can help expedite your paperwork. That is what they are supposed to do and pay workers to deal with that stuff for us.
    1342 days ago
    I am sorry things are difficult. I hope everything will be solved. emoticon
    1342 days ago
    Naw... Your okay. You go for the gold.
    I'm glad this is getting straightened out. They should also reimburse you for all you've paid on your meds.
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    I'm glad to hear your spirits are a little higher today, and I'm glad that prayer helped. I will cross my fingers and toes that things work right this time and you finally get your coverage.

    1343 days ago
    WOW... Amazing how hard things can me. We are behind you 100% emoticon and emoticon 2U
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