Tuesday, July 15, 2014
I've reset my ticker to my 10% goal because that would be amazing if I could get there by the time school starts, then I will work towards the next 10%.
I had a good visit with my friend. I was so nervous I was almost sick the night before my flight. I only slept 3 hours. :-( Once we saw each other I just took a deep breath and pushed my negative thoughts about myself to the back. I had to "fake it to make it". Like my mom said before I left, don't put words in her mouth or try to read her mind because whether she was thinking " wow she has gained weight" or not it shouldn't matter. We have been friends for almost 30 years! We picked up where we left off and had a good, mellow time. I met her almost 5 year old boy. The last time we saw each other she was pregnant with him. Now she is 9 weeks with her 2nd! She felt bad that we couldn't go out really but I honestly was relieved because I didn't want to do that. I don't feel confident and I don't need the calories. We both said we won't let 5 years go by before we see each other again! ;-)
I'm really wanting to be dedicated to this weight loss journey. I need to be. She lost her weight 14 years ago the old fashion way- keeping a food diary, working out and keeping within her calorie range. No fancy gadgets or expensive shakes. She said losing weight was harder than maintaining because once she got to goal she NEVER wanted to go back. I have to take a page out of her book. She did all of that during college no less and still had a fun experience. I can do it at 37. There should be no excuses. I guess this trip gave me a renewed sense of motivation.
Have a good week friends! I'm going to get my workouts done early because of the heat.
Still need to get outside for a jog but not going to beat myself up about it if I don't. I have LOTS of DVDs I can do as well. I want to enjoy my summer break but still stay active and work on my journey. :-)