Tuesday, July 15, 2014
Yes maybe I have been in denial this pregnancy over my weight. I can still do all my jumps in WERQ and I can still stand for an 8 hr day at work just fine. I don't feel like I look heavier in the mirror. Well Maybe I do, maybe just not in the face... yet. Anyway when I got to my OB I ask the nurse not to tell me my weight, I don't wanna focus on the number. I wanna focus on being healthy. Well yesterday she blurted it out before I could say "Please don't....". Ugh it was 201, holy crap! This was a monday morning after having a bagel and 2 cups of coffee with 1 cup ice. Plus Sunday night I ordered a pizza for dinner and subjway for lunch and Saturday we had fried chicken for dinner and let's not talk about what else. Point is I need get a grip. Pregnancy is not an excuse to eat garbage and be like "woah that baby really wanted some ben and jerry's". So yes it was good that she ignored me and told me my weight despite my efforts to stop her. I think I need to start weighing myself at home and keeping an eye on this. Ignoring anything is a bad idea. I can still eat a ton of stuff. But it has to be good stuff, not meat shop hot dogs and ordering cracker barrel to go. I knew I had issues when I did the last one. Been on a such a restricted diet for the past 6-7 yrs, I guess I went a little bit crazy. Did I get anything out of it? No. I did watch how addictive sugar is and how hard it is to skip a day without it once u start having it regularly.
I am also back to my rule of eating out once a week and that is also counted in ordering in/pick up. I know better, I will do better. I promise, self, I wont get us back in the place we once were. Fatty food is not worth it. Plus there is no amount of exercise you can do to combat fatty food, none.