Day 41: Justificiation
Tuesday, July 15, 2014
I would have to say that one of the most important lessons that I have learned since starting on SP is listening to myself. I do need to go into work today because I have a request, but I'm not going to go to school. I can feel the hairline cracks spreading through my psyche and I'm still three weeks out from finals. Every one of my days "off" so far has been planned out.
So today I'm going to stay home, clean, do laundry, listen to music, do some studying. I'm going to allow my body to recuperate. I'd take a bath, but a dude is coming to fix our bathroom sink. Maybe he'll show up in the morning and I'll be able to do it this afternoon.
It's still strange for me to think "I'm missing a quiz and I can't make it up" but I could seriously miss the rest of the quizzes for the trimester and get 50% on the final (i.e. fail) and still pass the class. I need to choose my mental health over 5% of a grade in a class that I currently have 100%. The grade I'm getting won't matter in three years. That's not how this business works.
I used to insist on perfection, now I insist on doing well. Part of doing well is not burning out. Health is recognizing not only your physical limits but your mental ones and this is me being healthy.