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Day 1: Starting over with a fresh attitude

Sunday, July 13, 2014

Ten pounds is not life-threatening. Ten pounds is not worthy of the power over my life I've accorded it. Ten pounds will not make or break me.

I've gained at least 10 pounds since I last posted a blog. I don't know how much I've gained, exactly, because I'm afraid to get on the scale. But I know my size 14 pants are very tight "across the beam" these days, and they weren't before. I know jeans that fit me six months ago no longer button or zip.

I've been stressing out A LOT over this -- way more than the situation warrants. Look, I lost my grandson five years ago. NOTHING could ever be more horrible than that. I need to keep a sense of perspective.

It's true I've been doing everything wrong. I haven't been tracking calories. I haven't been exercising. I've been eating at night. I've been feeling (physically) just miserable. Digestive problems I won't even go into here. Potato chips and white bread and ice cream -- I've known no boundaries for the past many months.

I hope today represents a turning point, but then I've hoped that before (as you'll see if you scroll back through old blog posts). Today I counted calories and kept within my range. Next week, I will resume going to the gym ("next week" only because my granddaughter is with us on vacation, and I don't want to miss a moment with her). I am seriously re-dedicating myself to my old ways of eating. I WILL get off this crap diet I've been indulging.

But, still. It's only 10 pounds. Yes, I need to head this binge off at the pass lest 10 pounds turn into 20. But right now it's only 10 pounds. It's not going to kill me.
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  • JAROL7
    Just take it off ... you can do it. DECIDING is 90% of the process ... the rest is just following your plan. Count every calorie and write it in the SP Tracker.
    1289 days ago
    Thank you all so much. I don't know why I'm in this nosedive. It's been going on for a year now. Sigh. I just want to get back to normal.
    1289 days ago
    I didn't know you'd been through something so awful.
    I've lost so many people close to me, some of them much too young. Yes, nothing as insignificant as ten measly pounds (a lot of which could be water from poor food choices?) matters in the grand scheme of things. What does matter is taking care of yourself, and eating well and moving your body are some ways to do that.
    Here for you if you need me!
    1289 days ago
    So sorry about your Grandson! How devastating!
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