Day 49 - fear
Saturday, July 12, 2014
Up running this morning again!!! While I do love the concept of the whole thing and I love the after effects, I do not enjoy the struggle!!! But my intent is to run 3 times a week until I am dead so I have to do this! When I woke this morning I did not want to get out of bed but fear made me get up!
I want to do this so badly! Not because of weight loss or the health benefits just because I want to be that person that runs 3 times a week!! I want to be her!!! Whenever I wake like this morning not wanting to go I think about ok what if I don't go!? Then the fear starts! I am 48, if I don't do this now it might be too late when I get back to it again! This is not the first time I have been on a running jaunt! I was doing this 15 years ago and I loved it but I just got out of it and stopped! It has taken me 15 years to get back to it!!! I can't stop now because if I do, I may never get back to it!!! I cannot let that happen!!!
Fear can be a great motivator!