Day 50 - Everything normalizes
Friday, July 11, 2014
I read this somewhere a few weeks ago and it has been revolving around in my head ever since. I don't know about you but I tend to have behind thoughts. I think, behind, somewhere in my head where I am unaware, thoughts gets whirled around until I come to some conclusion and then I become aware of it. For example this quote. I read it a few weeks ago and it has surfaced fleetingly a few times on random occasions when walking/running. Well it has been flashing at me for the last day or so with the conclusion that this quote is both positive and negative.
For example, my running. It hurts. I am struggling. But I am intent on running three times a week until I am dead because I do love it. Right now I am in the process of changing from a non runner to a runner. Eventually as I get stronger, this will become the norm. I will not be struggling as much I hope and I look forward to having this as a normal part of my daily life. On the negative side, I am obsessed with running right now. As I progress and become stronger/faster, I am enjoying it tremendously. I thrill at the progress I am making. I do not want to lose this appreciation for what my body can do. When it becomes normal for me to run will I just take the feeling for granted?
In other aspects of life as well, this quote has a double edge! The person who suffers from chronic pain for example. After a certain amount of time, it becomes just a normal part of life. My hope is that these people will come to terms with their new normal and find some happiness despite it. My eating habits, when I was just starting my journey, it was very difficult to make change. Now it has normalized. My new normal includes much healthier eating habits. But have I lost some of the appreciation for what I am doing? Sometimes. I used to revel at myself when I was making healthy choices because it was so new. Now it is the norm.
I guess for me my fear about everything normalizes is that I will lose the appreciation for the new habits I have developed. I am afraid of slipping and falling back onto old habits bit then if this is my new normal, will I have let go of the old? Right now, even though I am a new normal, I am on guard for old habits because I do slip occasionally. I wonder if I will ever be able to relax and just live, I have been reading other articles about all these diet rules, no carbs, no fat, low protein, high protein! The basis of these articles is very simple, avoid processed food as much as possible, eat when hungry, stop when full, drink water when thirsty, and exercise everyday! The articles argue that the diet industry is purposely confusing the issue for its own financial gain. I tend to agree! But I am afraid to throw caution to the wind and give up my tracking because I am too conditioned not to. Maybe at some point, I will try this for a few weeks and see what happens! For example, I love avacados but avoid them because of the calorie content. If I eat avocado in the amount that satisfies me, the calorie amount is too high. But is this the wrong approach!?
Yep, another ramble day!