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Up to 2 Miles!

Thursday, July 10, 2014

Yesterday I went to the therapist and it was a really good session. We talked about how I am not very assertive and how I need to be. How because I'm not I tend to let things bubble up & take over my mind as I obsesses over them. So something small becomes something huge because I am not facing it.

She explained that I have this backpack of rocks that I am carrying around. Each rock is a weight of something bad or uncomfortable that I am not letting go of or or not facing. And it is heavy and it takes me out of the moment. I can't focus on today if I am focused on all of this other crap that is so heavy and in my way.

And everytime I take care of an issue, that weight is lifted and I have more room to focus on my real issues and big problems. I also learn how to deal with issues so that it is easier and in the future I won't put the rock in my bag but just deal with it and move on.

So I have to work on being more assertive! She also wants me to find a way to volunteer at the cat shelter. She also told me I should see my doctor about upping my meds. I was planning on going today but forgot they are closed on Thursdays so tomorrow it is.

This morning I woke up at 4am! Idk why this keeps happening but it sucks. I wake up and can not go back to sleep for anything. Maybe I am drinking too much water before bed. I will try to cut back so close to bedtime and see if that keeps me asleep longer.

I went for a nice long walk today...2 miles! I decided to just push myself and up it. It went really well. I always start off so rough but as I go along my body adjusts and I am not so anxious, then it is easier.

My FBS was 128 this morning. Yesterday after lunch/before dinner it was the lowest yet at 118. I am feeling quite positive about it all.

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BUBBALOOGA123 7/10/2014 6:34PM

    I've had that challenge, too, where I just need to say what I need to say and not bottle it inside. Just picturing the words as being toxic and that they need to come out into the open has helped me get past my fear and be myself. Wishing you lots of success in getting rid of your rocks once and for all! :)

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CATTUTT 7/10/2014 2:37PM

    Great job getting in that 2 miles, I'm impressed! I hope someday I can do 2 miles!

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MSHEL7 7/10/2014 11:32AM

    Sounds like a good plan, take care.

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