Wednesday, July 09, 2014
It took me a bit to process that my trainer was leaving (even after she called herself my babysitter.) That comment has been forgiven as it was pointed out to me that she is likely under a lot of stress. Since then, we have been back to our normal selves, and we get along great. This is good, especially for the short term. She is leaving in 2 weeks from today.
I had a little panic attack about what would be next, but those fears are gone. I have a bunch of different options with two in the forefront. I am just rolling with it to see what plays out.
Option 1) - Continue as is with "Bad Cop" - except that he will step up his weekly visitation to 2x's a week. He is my first choice in a trainer, - I always wanted him to be my trainer even when I first met him, although he took kind of a back seat role until a few months ago. It remains to be seen if he is going to want to charge me more for upping his services.
Option 2) - Another trainer in the existing gym has also inquired about training me. I talked to him briefly in the parking lot about my trainer leaving and he said, "I would love to train you." The thing about him is that I think he means it. In my observations of him, he is very caring, vocal, tends towards being boisterous, all of which add up to my kind of person. (heavy on the boisterous!!!)
He might even work alongside bad cop, but not yet sure how that would go.
I had a brief exchange with bad cop to talk about what happens when my trainer leaves in his mind. The Alpha Male roared up and said I will work with him, and only him.
I don't know if that is really in my best interests, and here's where I am putting myself front and center. Many things could happen between now and her exit, and I do not want to alienate my current coach. I will leave things as status quo for now, but when the time comes, I will re-evaluate how I am doing, and what effect this has on me.
The bottom line is how is this going to affect me, my momentum and my continued success. This is what I need to take into account. I can't devalue all my coach has done for me. He is the man that made me believe in myself. He has guided my steps to reach my 58 lb. weight loss. He has been an integral part of my life in the last few months, and I want him to continue. As he says, this has been a fantastic journey - let's keep it going.
I am keeping my needs front and center. I am not in a position where I need to make a hasty decision, but I am all too aware that at some point, I will need to weigh things out, to measure if I am on the right course. There is no shame in recognizing that I may need need more help than one person can give. I expect to have a better understandng of that when the time comes.
How do you keep yourselves "front and center", sparkies?