Sunday, July 06, 2014
Today I was taking our morning walk and I had decided to up our distance and go farther then we usually go. We have been walking one mile I wanted to up it to 1.5. From where I live there is really only one direction to walk and we go straight down the road, turn around and go home.
Well we were walking along and a woman turned down behind us with a big dog. Idk what it was it looked like a yellow lab mixed with a bear it was huge. We were about a half a block ahead of them, no worries.
Then we got to the end of where I wanted to walk. I was exhausted by then and didn't want to keep going so I turned around and realized they were behind us so it was kindof awkward. I didn't think much of it, I've seen other dogs before. I pulled Trixie & myself to the very edge of the curb and waited for them to pass, leaving plenty of space. I smiled at her and apologized as her dog was pulling towards us. But he didn't seem aggressive to me just interested. I still kept us away.
But the woman wasn't very big and he pulls free from her and just jumps on Trixie. It happened so fast. He was just nipping at her butt. He didn't break the skin. But it was nothing but lunge and bite bite bite. She yelped and tried jumping/running.
She got her dog and I grabbed Trixie away and picked her up to check if she was ok. She was fine, no skin was broken.
The woman just said sorry and left. She didn't even stop to see if my dog was ok.
As soon as I saw Trixie was ok I lost it. I had to sit down on the ground crying, shaking, I couldn't breathe. Panic attack! So not the best reaction. Trixie went right into comfort mode, the angel lol.
She is so so tiny and it could have been so bad. I am just a wreck. I am scared if it mentally hurt her worse then it did physically. We still had to walk all the way home and for the entire way until we were back on our normal route she kept being jumpy and checking behind her.
I know I didn't handle it right. I did make her walk home though I so wanted to carry her and just protect her in my bubble of love. And I kept talking happy and telling her she was a good girl. I didn't want the experience to scar her so that she would be afraid of dogs.
I never thought about what I would do if she was attacked, that was never supposed to happen. I feel horrible about it. I should have pulled down the side street and backtracked instead of just walking to the side. And its all my fault we were down there to begin with, I should have stuck to our normal route and it wouldn't have happened.
She seems fine right now, like nothing happened.
A really strange part was that this morning when I started walking I so didn't feel like it. My legs were sore before I started. Every step I had to push myself forward. I kept saying oh I will turn around and cut it short but then I kept walking. The only reason I kept on was that it was pretty dead outside being Sunday morning & I didn't want to pass up that chance.
Also my BS numbers suck. My FBS was 145 & then three hours after breakfast + the walk I was up to 168. My breakfast only had 38 carbs. I had alot of anxiety but still, three hours & the walk I would imagine it wouldn't be so high.
I hope the rest of the day gets better. I am busy cleaning cleaning cleaning.