Saturday, July 05, 2014
It is so odd to me how phases in life change how you view, handle and enjoy food. For instance, as a SAHM I was bored...a lot...so I ate, it was easy to comfort the kids with food and I couldn't get out to shop for things I wanted to shop for (shoes, clothes, etc) so I enjoyed grocery shopping. As a result we always had a grotesque surplus of food in our home.
Then came a time when I realized some things about my mental health and the diet I was eating. I was able to make some DRASTIC changes, and my weight started to change, though I wasn't noticing it at the time.
I was then presented a job opportunity with a company I so much wanted to work for. I accepted the job and started working odd hours. I would cook for my family, prep their dinner, but it would not be time for me to eat. Even when I was home during the day with the littles, I was so focused on being able to sleep rather than food that my eating habits changed. I would prep my own meals, put thought into them and only eat what I had packed for the day (cause lord knows I wasn't about to pay food prices at my said place of work every day!!)
Then life threw me a curve ball...suddenly I was in my own apartment and my kids were only with me 50% of the time. Now I really had control over my food intake, I purchased foods that were good for the children and me. I had the ability to take the junk food out of our home and cook well portioned meals and had no one grumbling at me. During the times I didn't have the kids I ate what was left in the fridge or pantry and didn't have to grocery shop every single day. I don't care if I eat the same thing day in and out, as long as it gets eaten...and the less I have the cook the better! Anyway, the weight started coming off like crazy. I was eating healthy appropriate portion sizes. I didn't have potato chips to snack on while I made dinner, or chocolate chips in my pantry. I ate an avocado almost every day and still went from 145 to 115 lbs.
Then life decided to try to knock me out and I suddenly had my children 100% of the time. Now, please don't misunderstand this. I do NOT blame my children for my overeating, however, having enough food in the house for 4 people all the time makes it a lot easier to snack and I was trying to get three kids through an emotional trauma...sometimes milk and cookies was that answer (I know I know, don't judge me). Anyway, my diet started to slip. I was excercising more now though so I didn't see any weight changes.
Then I got a new job. M-F 9 - 6, normal human hours. Suddenly sleep didn't trump eating anymore. Reps bring in starbucks and lunches. My excercise routine was not so regular. The lbs start coming back. Suddenly all my cute new "skinny girl" clothes did't fit me.
And so started the yo-yo of losing the same 5-10 lbs every few months.
As I plan my upcoming wedding (yes I fell in love all over again and we are getting married this summer) I am looking at the food choices we make as a family. What do we NEED to have in our home all the time, how do I go about appropriating foods for packed lunches and foods to snack on at home. What kind of proteins are we eating, more importantly, what kind of processed carbs are we eating. Are we getting enough vegetables, real vegetables, not "corn" or "carrots" that are not necessarily bad for you, but lets be honest...they aren't the same as kale, broccoli, beets, bell peppers
I want my children to learn healthy eating. I want them to understand that yes, it is okay to have marshmallows and smores on the 4th of July...but we don't have to have 'dessert' every single night. We can snack on crunchy apples, or celery with peanut butter rather than potato chips. Eggs and whole wheat toast is a much better option than pancakes and syrup for breakfast.
I've reassesed our pantry and am on a mission to eat it empty before we buy more "fillers" I will buy perishables at the store, but I don't want our fridge and cupboards overflowing. (sure I can save money by stocking up on a sale day...but how many boxes of pasta am I really going to use? How many bottles of salad dressing? How many bags of goldfish crackers can we eat before they expire?)
Anyway, those are the stages I have noticed I went through in my life over the last 5 years or so. I found it interesting and yes a little weird.