Thursday, July 03, 2014
Life and every NEW day is definitely a blessing to be appreciated!
It was back to work today and it felt good - especially since things cooled off and I managed to sleep a solid 5 hours - I know not a lot but in comparison to the previous 3 nights a blessing.
The day flew by as it was my first day back since last Thursday. I am forever grateful for my workplace and amazing colleagues!
I had an intense night last night with my oldest as we got into some heavy discussions about her life path now that she has graduated. We also talked about some hurts about her dad not being present in her life and I offered her outlets or suggestions to deal with it - like handwriting him a letter to express her feelings as she feels when she calls she is never able to get what she wants to say out without being interrupted or yelled at
So tonight I am looking forward to a quiet night alone. My youngest called me and is asking to come home but I don't feel she's ready. She does not see that she's done anything wrong and is copping an attitude with me. When I talked to the counselor he agreed so he was going to let her know that she was not coming home but I have to go visit at 7:30. I told him I know it's going to be her begging me to come home and I'm not going there. He said there would be support for me and if she gets rude or the visit goes negatively - I can leave - I have a feeling it won't be a long visit.
I had hoped to see my guy tonight - but it won't work out so I'll make the most of an alone night and enjoy. I'm still feeling very tired and drained with the past few days.
TGIF tomorrow! A real short work week... gotta love that! And so now - I take a few hours to be calm before the visit... I'll check back in tomorrow.