Thursday, July 03, 2014
ok...in my head it had the tune but it doesn't sound right on paper.
This has been a rough week. I thought I was doing really well because I had been able to keep my emotions in check. I was doing well and was maintaining great relationships. I lost it this week. I forget that I need to be aware of what is happening and take steps to be proactive. It does no good to see what is wrong, know what to do and not takes the steps to maintain positivity.
When I say postiivity I am not saying pretending to be happy, healthy and strong while really falling apart. I am talking about being truely real, but helpful in the situation. Not allowing myself to follow my old ways, falling apart and exploding on everyone around me. Especially my hubby. He does not deserve to be the TARGET of my RAGE. I know that the things that I talk about when i get into these episodes are real and they are true but they do not have to be shown so strongly, and hurtfully.
Steps taken now.