Thursday, July 03, 2014
My biggest wish at the moment is that my tinnitus gets better.
I don't care anymore what caused it, why it got worse after being better for a while, if there are more exams I could do - I gave up on getting answers.
Now, I just wish the low sound, that has been very strong again ( a mix between a truck engine and a glass vibrating) would stop. I could keep the high sound (a mix between a whistle and a ringing), it almost doesn't bother me.
But the low sound... it is killing me. It is extremely difficult to live with this sound all the time in my ear, and especially to fall asleep with it.
I am very tired, I know there is nothing doctors can do and that this can be like this (or even worse) forever, and I try to keep my sanity by thinking about other things but sometimes I feel very fragile and very angry.
So, July is the month of wishing this goes away. It got better once, so it is possible it gets better again.