Thursday, July 03, 2014
I can't seem to find mine lately & I need some encouragement & support. There are 2 songs running through my head this last week. One is by Simon & Garfunkel.
"I'm empty & aching & I don't know why"
The other is the Gambler by Kenny Rogers
"You've got to know when to hold em, know when to fold em. Know when to walk away..."
I have been wanting to write this blog for over a week now but just have not have the strength or time. I am working 6 days a week, mostly nights & I am just burnt out. Don't get me wrong. For the most part, I enjoy my job but there have been days like like last Sunday where I nearly walked out & part of it is due to my own personal circumstances. Mary Ann, if you read this please do not let it be known to Larry's mother as I doubt he has told her the truth. Basically, the night after the trees fell on our house, my husband got fired, supposedly for Sexual Harassment. There has been an issue come up with his insurance & he wants me dropped from his policy so I am believing as also my son is, that his boss & him decided this was the best way to do it. He has produced no termination paperwork although I have asked him for it & he is making no effort to look for another job or get unemployment. Literally, he is doing nothing-I mean absolutely nothing! I am supporting the 3 of us on a minimum wage job. All he seems to want from me is to play around, excuse my bluntness. I am at my wits end & do not know what to do or where to turn. I am so pissed off when I get home at 11pm that there are dishes from the morning & the house is a total disaster. I am disheartened & I feel so betrayed.
Thank you for letting me vent. I know you are my true friends & I trust you all & love you with all my heart!