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Wednesday, July 02, 2014

So this is what happened Tuesday morning.

Today I am struggling with the death of a colleague. She was my age and lost her battle with breast cancer last night. I am so very, very sad that she is gone but I know she would be the first to tell me to suck it up buttercup and move forward because that was just the very essence of Marie. I知 also very angry at the unfairness of her losing a battle she fought valiantly, with grace and quite comically as well.

She was the toughest chick you ever met and she could be the softest and most understanding woman all in the same breath. She took on her first battle of breast cancer with the force of an Amazon Warrior. She laughed in the face of cancer, literally, and she beat the odds by removing both her breasts. All of her sisters had breast cancer and they beat it. I was sure Marie was going to beat it too. But life is cruel and she was diagnosed with her second round with cancer late last year, 2013. The doctors told her it was terminal but I refused to believe she couldn稚 beat it again. She was Marie, Cancer should be scared of HER. But Marie took her leave from our company and went home to be with her husband, step-children and her many animals on her quaint hobby farm. I sure missed those organic eggs when she left and I missed her terribly too. We emailed weekly but it痴 just not the same as seeing her smiling face every day.

I know she would not want me to be sad so I will try my hardest to be brave. I値l think of her as I watch the fireworks from my rooftop tomorrow night, I値l raise a glass of beer to her as I wish for her a happy and safe journey to her next destination. I adopted one of her barn cats. His name is Marshall. As I sit at my desk trying to keep back the tears, I know once I go home and kiss that little ginger cat, I値l let the tears flow freely.

My emotions are pretty raw right now but through the pain I can clearly say that Marie is my hero. I often wondered when I would be called to run for the cure. Marie, I値l run for you. I will try to make a difference in the fight against breast cancer and I will do it for you because you have done so very much for me. Everyone at the office knows that I知 the one to make everyone smile and laugh on a daily basis. You were that for me. I loved listening to you tell stories and every one of them made me giggle. Your light will be a constant missing for me. If there is a God, you池e already entertaining and challenging her!

I love you Marie. I never told you cuz you knowyou never were a mushy muffin. I値l sign this blog off the way we signed off all of our emails since you left the office.HUGS AND STUFF

And the next day my good friend who I've known since 2001 celebrated Canada Day with me and introduced me to SparkPeople. I want to first and foremost make the connection that Marie is still contributing to me by helping me loose weight in order to participate in The Run for the Cure in order to help other women who have to go through the same battle she did. Secondly, I want to thank My good friend Mimma for coming back into my life and once again motivating me. See these are two very strong women and it's no wonder. I am strong too and I know I can beat the battle of the bulge. With the help of Mimma and SparkPeople, failure really is not an option.
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JIBBIE49 7/3/2014 10:43AM

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RHOOK20047 7/3/2014 8:38AM

    So sorry for the loss of your friend, but you are turning your loss into something good and positive,and doing what Marie would want you to do. Welcome to SparkPeople. We are all here for the same reason, no matter what our personal story is. We are here to help each other to get to that healthy point we want to be in our lives. It is not going to be easy, but it is attainable. I have found that changing things up is the way to start weight loss. Make small goals and they will lead to big successes. Welcome and get active on this site. emoticon

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MIMMICA 7/2/2014 8:38PM

    We can do this!

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PICKIE98 7/2/2014 4:32PM

    We are all blessed with people like this in our lives, if only for a brief time. Marie did not LOSE her battle, she was just chosen to let the other warriors continue the battle here, while she was rewarded for her hard work and struggle, with sheer bliss and no pain. She passed her baton to you and you have , as a great friend, accepted it with pride and love.

Big hugs to you.

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DWROBERGE 7/2/2014 3:43PM

    Keep focused for success.

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