Wednesday, July 02, 2014
The hot weather has finally arrived and I am in desperate need of shorts. I gave birth to my second daughter just a little over three months ago so naturally nothing fits me and even if one of my pairs of shorts did manage to squeeze over my enormous thighs, I would not wear them due to the fact that my legs looked like someone poured cottage cheese on them.
I went to the store, put a few pairs of shorts in my cart and headed towards the change room.
I realize that I am not the same size as I was before my pregnancy so I grabbed a few sizes larger than what I usually wear. I tried on the first size up from my normal size and I couldn't get them over my thighs. I tried on the next size up and couldn't button them. Then I looked in the mirror and felt sad and angry. I didn't like the way I looked but worse, I didn't like the way I felt.
I understand that I only gave birth a few months ago and I'm still recovering from a separated pelvic bone that this pregnancy caused but I know that I could do better than this.
So at that moment I made a decision. I am not going to think about exercising, I am going to exercise! I am not going to think about eating better, I am going to eat better! I am not going to feel bad about myself because I am fabulous and just need to put in a little bit more effort.
So I left the change room and refused to try the next size up. I headed over to the active wear department and got myself a pair of shorts and a workout top with built in support. Thank goodness for generic xs-xl sizes because I really can't look at any more numbers today!
OK, got the clothes, now what's next? Food! I think the hardest part about losing weight and getting fit is not how much I exercise but what I choose to eat. I know that I can find at least 45-60 minutes each day to work out and that much time isn't even necessary if I'm doing the right exercises, but it's what I've been eating that has really gotten me into this position. I did a mental inventory of what I ate over this past weekend and it was definitely an eye opener. I realized that I had eaten more canned, boxed and bagged food than fresh food and that made me feel like crap.
My problem is not planning ahead, getting hungry and eating anything I find in the kitchen without thinking about it. This has to change so I need to make a plan! What better way to find easy, quick, healthy and delicious snack ideas???!!! PINTEREST BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oh my beloved Pinterest, how I truly and deeply love thee :)
I created two new boards which include "Healthy Foods" & "Mush into muscle" which will be my go to places for healthy snacks/meal ideas and exercise plans.
I decided today that I will not be purchasing a scale. My current goal is to make healthier food choices and begin an exercise program that gives me energy, makes me sweat and will result in my clothes going down in sizes. Weight is only a number that does not define how I look or feel about myself. Whether this decision will change down the line, who knows? But today all I want to do is make a promise to myself that I will start to make better decisions about how I live my life.
Goal today: Research recipes, watch videos on how to properly exercise and remind myself to be realistic. This is going to take time and I will not be a size 2 next week (nor do I want to be a size 2 in general because I had killer curves).
Alright! Let's do this!