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Day 944- My Trip to San Francisco

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Wednesday, July 02, 2014

Hello Sparkfriends! Long time no blog!

My last blog entry was a joyous one, reaching a size 8, even when the scale read 185.

And during my trip to San Francisco, I realized how fit I really am. J.D. and I walked about 7-8 miles a day while there, something I would have never done at 275 pounds. We rode bikes across the Golden Gate Bridge and hiked to the beach. I'm so active now.






And yet, after the trip, I am here now at 187.8. Still fitting comfortably in my size 8 shorts I purchased.

I can't figure out why, after such an amazing week that showed my fitness level, I still care so much about those stupid 3 pounds.

Or why I care at all how much I weigh anymore.

I don't want to give up on the scale, or on eating the way I currently eat.

But I have come to hate eating 1200-1500 calories, especially when I can eat 1800-2000 and maintain.

The 160s seem like an unattainable goal. And I'm sitting here why I even want to attain them.

It's because I've never been there. Not since 7th grade. And that was my idea of healthy.

But I'm a size 8. I run 5ks numerous times per week. And I can pretty much not track food and stay right here.

Do I suck it up and start back to the strict weight loss mode of eating even if it means being miserable, just to reach that 160 range?

No matter how many times I tell myself to ignore the stupid scale, it still matters to me.

Bah humbug.
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PEGGYO 7/7/2014 9:40PM

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RUNNINGYOGINIRE 7/7/2014 7:27PM

  emoticon I live in the Bay Area and the city is definitely a great place to get in the walking miles. Glad you had a great trip.

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SPECIALGURL7 7/7/2014 5:44PM

    You look wonderful. How do you feel? Is it the thought of you reaching the goal you have set for yourself? Is it thought of not having been there before in a while or because you will feel better health wise there? Just a few things to think about. Then, do what you feel is best in the circumstances.

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CUDDLYPOLARBEAR 7/7/2014 12:45PM

    Great post and sounds like a fun vacation

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DAWNDMOORE40 7/6/2014 9:06PM

    emoticon I say that you are doing wonderful! I know that we all stress about the scale from time to time, but your a size 8 so your definitely doing something right! I fit into that same size, but I weight 140. So you see we all come in different shapes and sizes and what works for me isn't necessarily going to work for you. They say to spice things up by maybe taking a different approach on your eating. I was staying within 1500-1600 calories a day, but I exercise every day and I felt I needed more. The scale says I am maintaining the same weight I have for 4 years, but it isn't dropping. So then I decided maybe I was in a fitness burnout. That means that I am not giving my body some lighter days to heal. So starting this week that is my goal. I plan on taking two days out of the week and just make it a really light cardio session or maybe on Sunday's, I will just do some stretching. Sounds like a plan for both of us. Maybe try that and see if it works for you! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MAMAMOOSE54 7/6/2014 8:11PM

    You look great and are fit and active-keep up the good work. Your weight is just a number-how you feel and how your clothes fit is really important, too.
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KIPSTER52 7/6/2014 6:42PM

    Enjoy being a size 8. Be happy, be healthy

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BELLAMITZI 7/6/2014 2:19PM

    Celebrate the positive of experiencing a vacation like you never have before with only a 3lb weight gain! It could be you are in a plateau and this too shall pass! You look amazing and have inspired so many people! HUGS!!

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RENATA144 7/6/2014 1:52PM

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SAPHRAEL 7/6/2014 11:36AM

    One of my biggest fears is that I'll lose weight and continue to obsess over it. I say enjoy maintenance for awhile! Enjoy, enjoy, enjoy! And LIVE! Once you get your fill, maybe go into training mode to lose a little more. emoticon

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CARRIELYN56 7/6/2014 9:03AM

    ....so, idea..... tell yourself, "yes, the scale still matters'....... however, " I matter even more!!!!" ..... numbers are tools & good indicators..... however, how we feel without the tools is where we want to focus on first, to keep the perspective on who we are.
So glad you had a great walking time!!!! emoticon

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MSLZZY 7/5/2014 10:39PM

    You are beautiful so don't let the scale define you!

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IRISHGAL46 7/5/2014 10:43AM

    emoticon . We can't help how we feel. If you keep at it, it will come.

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_CYNDY55_ 7/5/2014 2:42AM

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GRLTAZ 7/4/2014 11:29AM

    I am sorry to see you struggling. you have a beautiful strong fit body and you just beam health in all your pictures. Maybe seeing a counselor would benefit you ? Just a thought. I do hope you find your path in your mind so this will cease to be a problem for you. Blessings.

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CFMOSS 7/4/2014 10:10AM

    Here's to good choices that take care of you in the best way possible today -- some days it may be on the road to losing a little more weight to reach that seemingly unreachable goal....some days it may be maintaining and finding success in that maintenance. You look good; you seem to feel good; You are beautiful now and whatever weight you will be in 6 months and 12 months. Good journeying.

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RUNNERRACHEL 7/4/2014 8:51AM

    Here's another idea: tweak your foods. You are very active. Eating less calories doesn't make sense. I was eating 1300-1400 a day and running and biking. I decided to tweak my diet--for me it was watching the sweets--frozen yogurt, etc. (that fit in my range but didn't offer much nutrition and were high in sugar. I increased my calories to about 1800 (because I was very active every day) and actually saw the scale go down. I started eating more protein, making sure I was doing strength training 2-3 times a week, and eating plenty of freggies...the scale went down.

Instead of working harder (you already do), work smarter. Make your workouts work for you. Make the foods you eat work and fuel your body and help it to perform the best way it can.

Yes, you are healthy and active and the scale is just one measure. But if you do want to see it go down, why not plan more strategically and make tweaks to your diet and maybe adding more strength, flexibility if you're not already. Now that you are active and have been successful, you have to find different things to make your body continue to burn efficiently.

Try it!

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BLUEJEAN99 7/4/2014 1:58AM

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NANHBH 7/3/2014 11:41PM

    Your future health will require tracking and accountability. Your future children will thank you for being healthy for them and teaching them about your healthy lifestyle.
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CICELY360 7/3/2014 11:04PM

  Love it.

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ROCKYCPA 7/3/2014 10:43PM

    Your weight is just a number - your fitness shows your size. I am very short - 5 ft 1 in and weigh over 120 lbs but I still wear a size 4. Who knows why that happens but as long as you are healthy and happy with the size you are - then don't worry about the scale's numbers!

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NONNAOF2 7/3/2014 8:50PM

  Even knocking off 100 calories under the amount of calories you maintain your weight at should do something for you,although you will lose weight more slowly. You most certainly are keeping active and burning calories that way, too! It's nice to be at peace with oneself! :-)

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BLPRETTYGIRL1 7/3/2014 8:23PM

    emoticon a magic wand to help us to lose. Too bad it isn't that easy.

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COOLRAIN 7/3/2014 4:38PM

    I wish I had the answer for you--and for me. That scale drives me crazy too!

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SARAHMANI 7/3/2014 4:09PM

  The best way to stop caring about the scale is to take on strength training! I still (sadly) care about the scale but much less as the silhouette in the mirror and my new muscle shape show me a much "truer" story than the scale... :)

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LIVELYGIRL2 7/3/2014 4:01PM

  I live over the hill from San Francisco. I wish we actually met each other, but we only have one vehicle.

Besides you can't met hoards of us Spark People.

You do sound healthy and fun or energy. As for the extra 27 lbs to goal. I think it is you and your mans' thoughts, your dr., people you trust, and God's opinion that matter.

Obviously going that amount of calories forever doesn't work for most.

You will have to figure what amount of calories and activities you need to make you maintain and stay at whatever your goal is.

I know there are tons of suggestions out there.

I had been drinking lots of green tea with stevia because it is hot. I saw in a magazine that adding a squeeze a lemon, is good for fat fighting. Now this one is doable and enjoyable.

I'm proud of you two. Rah, rah !

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PATRICIA-CR 7/3/2014 1:39PM

    The sky is the limit! Aim high, work hard.

Congrats on such a wonderful trip.

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WALLINMW 7/3/2014 12:14PM

  Awesome!

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JSEATTLE 7/3/2014 11:52AM

  We tend to focus on numbers when your blog says it all. YOU ARE FIT!! Possibly the fittest you have been in your life so far, but probably not the most fit you will ever be in your life ahead. I think that is such a great accomplishment!!

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PENOWOK 7/3/2014 11:35AM

    perhaps you need a couple of months just to maintain. Some people need to do that before they go back to the work of the discipline. Maintaining IS discipline, though, so if you do that, don't take it lightly...

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NEPTUNE1939 7/3/2014 11:33AM

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PATRICIAANN46 7/3/2014 10:59AM

  Check with your Doctor; and then do what makes you HAPPIEST!!! It sounds like you have found YOUR healthy lifestyle, and if your Doctor agrees..........You are in maintenance!!! emoticon

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ARLOGUTHRIE 7/3/2014 10:12AM

    you are doing great so far. If you are fitting into smaller clothes you have to be doing something right. Have you taken measurements lately?
I always find that summer is a really miserable time to cut or track calories. I think instead of focusing on a number, focus on elimination of foods that are known to prohibit fat loss. A great book to check out is 4-hour body by Tim Ferris. Rather than being a diet or a plan, it contains a lot of ideas about different things we can do to optimize our bodies. emoticon

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WHITNEYLD 7/3/2014 9:13AM

    If you are healthy and happy at where you are, as well as how fit you are, enjoy maintenance!

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LIVINHEALTHY9 7/3/2014 8:54AM

    You look great so don't let the scale determine how you feel!

I know, we let the scale have way too much control over our lives. Guilty of that myself.


It sounds like it was a wonderful trip and you both look fantastic!


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GARDENCHRIS 7/3/2014 8:00AM

    you can always take a mini break for awhile, do maintenance for a time then go back to trying for those last lbs

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SHERYLP461 7/3/2014 7:27AM

    I think you have reached your sweet spot, you look amazing, you are healthy and fit. With your muscle tone you may not drop weight, but continue to tone. A size 8 is pretty awesome for a girl your height.
Sheryl

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GODDREAMDIVA1 7/3/2014 7:27AM

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EACHMOMENT2 7/3/2014 6:49AM

  You are so active, healthy and already in a size 8. What caught my attention was that your goal weight was what you weighed in 7th grade? If I read that right then I wonder how a middle school girl and an adult woman could weigh the same. A middle school girl usually isn't done growing yet even at a healthy weight. When in doubt, maintain. The next step will present itself at the right time. What a great trip.

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SHARON7464 7/3/2014 6:42AM

    There's a lot of great advice here...none of us can make the decision for you. The one thing I can state emphatically is that you are an inspiration to many here. Keep working out...my clearest thoughts come when I'm running.

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TRYINGHARD54 7/3/2014 6:08AM

    such a cute couple.

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BESSHAILE 7/3/2014 6:05AM

    Man - do I ever know where you're coming from. I'm "at goal" .... for the 5'6" woman I was before menopause. I'm now 5.5. hmmm. And I remember myself at my hottest when I was 8 lbs smaller. so it's only 8 lbs, right? piece of cake. I ought to be able to just try it and see, right? but I haven't. And I still care. And I don't know why - when the lady at the gym was talking to me and an old friend and the friend complimented me on my weight loss and the lady said "OH? I've known you for 2 years and I thought you'd always been skinny".

Why do we care when it is the ONLY thing between feeling stalled and feeling finished?

Sorry. I don't have the answer. Just the question. But my first thought, as I read your blog, was the one Rural3 brought up. Got excess skin? And my second thought was - it's hard to give up the identity of a fat person who needs to lose weight if you've been that person for a long time. I'm still working on it.

Here is what I do know. You've got a lot of tools. You've got a great support system. You are one smart cookie. Don't' let impostor syndrome rob you of knowing, feeling and acknowledging the joy of being the fit, beautiful, vivid active girl you already are.

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TINAJANE76 7/3/2014 2:38AM

    Ditto what NUOVAELLE said. Finding a way of life you can live with permanently is such an important part of this process--and we'd love to have you on the maintenance team when you're ready!

Have you also thought about talking to your doctor about whether we're you're currently at is an appropriate goal range for you? Health is really the most important consideration in this process, so if you're happy with your lifestyle and your doctor backs you up, then maybe you can really relax and not worry about those last pounds. I had some blood work done shortly after I first reached goal and it showed that I still had some improvements to make. Although I didn't lose any more weight, it was a motivator to stay on the healthy track and my consistency paid off with MUCH better results two years later.

Good luck with whatever you decide, girl!

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