Wednesday, July 02, 2014
Universe...I am listening. I have heard you. I am trusting my instincts and intuition. I hear you.
Weight is such a weird thing. I think as women, we think about it more than we should. On Saturday, I went to a Manifestation Vision Board class. As silly as it might sound, it was pretty life changing. We had to write down what we believe is holding us back.
Of course, I said fear. But, we had to break that down. So, I wrote...fear of not being enough. Fear of being unworthy or undeserving. And responsibility to care for others, but fear that I will never care for myself that way. Then we had to voice this to the person next to us.
Then we took the paper and tore it up. It nearly brought me to tears. Life changing. We threw the torn pieces in the trash. I feel like a rid myself of something that day. Of my doubt. Of my reluctancy. Of my fears.
Since Saturday...I have been seeing things so differentlly. It seems I have allowed myself permission to take control of my life. It didn't come all at once. But, in pieces. Today, I did some writing. I have been putting it off for a week. Then I went back to the gym. I have been putting that off for a week. Then I gave myself permission to eat like a human being, not a dieter. I of course tracked it. But, I gave myself space. I didn't beat myself up in my head, or call myself names. It was very empowering.
And...what I am realizing is that I have had the power to change my life all this time. There was no special food or program I needed to buy. No special workout DVD or equipment I needed to have. Everything I needed, I have.
It was just a matter of me. Believing it.
So yes. I had my Dorothy moment! It's time to get the life I want!