Tuesday, July 01, 2014
It's funny how eating badly for a week (or four) will truly affect your mood (and stomach).
I already admitted that on my wedding day (June 7th. 2014) I didn't like what I looked like. I wasn't as long & lean as I wanted to be, I didn't feel drop-dead gorgeous and I didn't think I looked "wow". I looked normal. and I was underwhelmed with myself.
Of course this leads to stupid counter-productive thoughts like "who cares what I eat, I look the same no matter what... " etc... and I found myself eating any food I wanted, in whatever quantity, snacking all the time, eating desserts etc...
AND the result?! I felt crappy. I felt depressed. I didn't feel light, I felt bloated, the food wasn't amazing, and I didn't enjoy it as much as I enjoyed my once a week treat that I've become accustomed to.
It's been a month of lessons... and the end result is that no matter what I look like, I FEEL better eating healthy and exercising.
I don't know when I will be happy with the way I look... (it seems like the more I lose, the darker the circles under my eyes and more gaunt I look... not attractive). but the way I feel is what I miss from this month.
The wedding is over, I have no big event to plan for... so my focus needs to shift. I need to eat better, and exercise again. Today I stopped with the bad snacks, had a healthy lunch and planning for a grilled chicken & salad dinner.
It's only 2:30pm and I already feel so much better. Being always accountable is just a way of life, it can be pushed to the back of your mind but your body will be a harsh and loud reminder.
UPDATE - ate my chicken & orzo salad and it was delicious. A clean day of eating (avoided ice-cream and cake at work, snacks and cookies at home) and it feels SO much better than overeating. Could it be that SparkPeople helped me make a true lifestyle change?!