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Depressed and feeling overwhelmed

Saturday, June 28, 2014

I am not in a good mood today my friends. my health and weight are so much on my mind and I feel overwhelmed.

I know I am doing this again to me, I am taking care of other people , I am not taking care of m yself, my husband is my first priority , things need to change I need to be first priority of myself, I feel burnt out, and that I give and give and give, and I am feeling miserable.

I am tired of being in pain, I am tired of being stressed out when I go to the doctor because I will hear the same thing that I need to lose weight, and I am obese!!

Things will look better tomorrow Im sorry my spark family I am just having a day. emoticon

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KCSMOM9 6/29/2014 1:25PM

    I know how you feel. I have a disabled Dad who my Mom and I take care of. Sometimes it is just overwhelming and we need to vent and take a minute. Take care of yourself the best you can and God will handle the rest. emoticon

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CATHYHASSPARK 6/29/2014 10:29AM

    good morning my friends, I am feeling better, a lot of it is, I am working so hard about moving forward, from experiencing my husbands four years of unemployment, I carried everything, even when it came to saving our house I did that with Gods help. He is working a part time job now, I am working full time, but there are still times I still feel I am taking the main responsibility of paying the bills. My husband is using the excuse because he started school he does not think he can handle an eight hour day every day, I do it every day , I have full time school and work full time. So I was also frustrated because I feel like I am going to have to keep working hard and I am not getting any support. I am starting today, he is tired from work probably will not go to church I am going by myself for me because I need it. and I am counting on the support of my spark family. love you guys.

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NELLJONES 6/29/2014 7:09AM

    When my DH had each of his strokes, I was full time caretaker, juggling his care, hauling him up and his wheelchair up and down steps to get to doc appointments, running his IVs, maneuvering him into a shower. Putting myself first was more about tiny things: brush my teeth, comb my hair, put on lipstick, wear perfume. There is no way to get in 10,000 steps or go to the gym when you have to spend 12 hours a day in hands on caretaking. I know. Leaving the house to go to the store meant having someone here watching him. I didn't keep any food in the house that wasn't on my plan, and I had to plan my own meals as closely as I planned his, which I still do. We got through it to a new normal. You can, too.

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JULIAOAK 6/29/2014 5:25AM

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MCJOYFUL 6/28/2014 11:20PM

    I think for myself that I don't put me first a lot of times because I think I am less worthy....simply "less than". That's part of the negative self talk that I struggle with at times. But you know what, I am no less important than anyone else. I deserve to be healthy and fit and so do you. When I read your blog about an hour ago, I wanted to write you a note of encouragement. But I felt I would be a hypocrite. I had made a commitment to myself a few days ago to take care of myself by getting in 10,000 steps a day and I wasn't even near it an hour ago. I still had 3,500 steps to go. I was feeling "less than." I knew that in order to be able to write you encouragement I had to face it head on and I did. I've kept my commitment...the steps are in. You deserve to take care of yourself. Every day do one thing for matter how small and it doesn't even have to do with weight loss or exercise. Just something to remind yourself you are important too, right where you are. emoticon

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MOTHERBAGGINS 6/28/2014 7:59PM

    I can really relate to this post. I have been having a not so great day myself, battling many of the same issues. Try doing one thing - exclusively for yourself this evening -- and plan out how you can take care of yourself so that you can reach your goals. That's basically what I've been doing for the past hour -- trying to plan how I can prepare healthy meals for my family when I am working, plan ways to get work more physical activity into my life, and I plan to take a long hot bath after dinner. We can end the day on a good note. emoticon

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WILE3COYOTE 6/28/2014 7:49PM

  (((HUGS))) no need to apologize. We all have our 'days' but like you said, tomorrow will be better..another change to figure things up.

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CATHYHASSPARK 6/28/2014 5:16PM

    emoticon Thanks my friends!!

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CURLYANNIE65 6/28/2014 5:04PM

    I am so sorry you are feeling bad. Just remember - everything changes, nothing stays the same. Joy comes in the morning. And remember, if you do not take care of yourself, you won't be able to give to anyone else. Take care of yourself - you are worth it.

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SHEHULK86 6/28/2014 4:29PM

    Keep the faith - one bad day doesn't mean you have failed in any way. Tomorrow will be better and you'll be stronger than ever!! emoticon

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JANET552 6/28/2014 4:24PM

    emoticon You are worth treating yourself with kindness!!

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