Thursday, June 26, 2014
... I've taken a major step back in terms of Spark stuff.
I don't know if you had noticed, but I have been largely absent from SparkLand since just before Easter.
It's not something I'm particularly happy about - I miss my Spark Friends and feel that I'm letting you down by not reading and commenting on your blogs, failing to send you Spark Goodies or encouraging messages, no longer contributing to Team Points and so on.
The thing is, I just got too obsessive about Sparking so that instead of it being a useful tool to help me make changes towards a healthier and happier lifestyle it became a heavy burden. I HAD to get as many points each day as I could, ticking off (= "checking" for my US friends!) the boxes on my Spark Points list even when I was very late for bed and desperately tired.
I was also obsessive about recording all the food I ate and the exercise I did - not in itself a bad thing, indeed we know it can be a very useful, positive thing to do, but ... well, eventually I realised that it was making matters worse rather than better.
So I've taken some time off. I hated the thought of not logging on to Spark and it was only through going to a remote part of Scotland where I had no access to a computer or the Internet for a week that enabled me to do it.
I've taken a tentative step back into SparkLand because I want to track my food intake for a few days to see if I'm getting the levels about right.
I really miss the support and friendship I've found here but don't feel I can afford the time that 'doing Spark properly' takes.