Thursday, June 26, 2014
I have battled with my weight from as early as I can remember and have had the same battle with the scale. I went years without weighing myself because I just couldn't face it. That has not changed even when I reached my goal back in 2010, as well as my many other attempts at weight loss prior to joining Spark. As soon as I lost the weight, I stopped stepping on the scale. I thought I could manage my weight without it, I have tried to tell my self many, many times, that the number does not matter, and there is a lot of truth to that. However, the number is important to accountability and the very fact that when you are taking care of yourself, you need to use the tools that assist you in doing so, the scale being one of them. Also, for me personally, given all the times I have lost and regained the weight, I need to the scale to keep me accountable.
So, are you shaking your head yes, or do you think I am still stuck in a line of thinking that a number can provide me with what I need in my life, which is self love. I am shaking my head yes to the latter, because I know I avoid the scale because I think the number means so much more then it should to me. That is why I decided to do the following:
Reset set my goals and fully commit to getting back to my goal weight and maintaining it once I am there.
Got back on the scale Monday morning even though I knew I was not going to like what I saw (I didn't) because a lot of times when I reset my goals I use a weight I think I am and then I am not being honest
Wrote my blog about digging deep and setting my intentions to fully commit
Used this idea that I read on a fellow Spark members blog, Lotusflower, to remind myself that the scale is not my enemy
Commit to getting on the scale once a week (in the past I only weighed myself once a month) because I want to win this battle, fully commit and be more honest with myself because I AM more then a number!