Wednesday, June 25, 2014
I didn't really do anything today. Just for fun, I drew some simple plans for our "dream house." I watched TV. Made dinner. Watched a movie with the family. Puttered around online. I've just been so BORED lately. I'm usually so busy at school and I am not working much this summer. When I get really stressed like I have been, I start feeling worn out. Being bored makes me feel worn out, too. Not to mention I'm trying to break a medicine dependency/addiction. I've gone three nights in a row without any kind of drowsy medication. I've just been having zero energy, and it sucks. I seriously need to do some cleaning and get back on my exercise program...but I just don't have any push. My get up and go got up and went. Maybe I need to take some more of my herbs. They help with my mood and my nerves, and I wonder if my mood and nerves were doing better, I might be more inclined to exercise...? It's worth a shot. I've been thinking about taking them again anyway. I just feel kind of flat lately. Not really one way or another with emotions. My most prevalent emotion is stress...or is that more of a state of mind? Hmmm...I have also been having a couple of alcoholic drinks every day. Maybe that is also dulling my emotions. I think maybe there are just many factors playing into this equation. I think all I need to focus on right now is getting a good night's sleep so that I can wake up tomorrow and feel refreshed and ready to take on the day.