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Wondering What Mirror I Broke

Monday, June 23, 2014

I am really depressed by my situation. I feel like I am going no where. Just a year and half ago, my life had so much promise. I just graduated from college with Exercise Science and had the huge accomplishment of losing 100 pounds. I am hardworking, outgoing.. yet this isn't enough.

I took an Americorp VISTA position and relocated from everything I enjoy. I knew the job would end in June so I started looking in April. I accepted a job full time than it took it back a couple weeks ago and offered 15 hours at $9.50/hr. So, that's like 100 bucks a week.

I am doing some marketing/design work for some ladies that are selling essential oils. I get $70/wk but I get pressured to sell it. It's tempting... but I just don't know. If that's not enough my client's friend keeps saying such and such does it this way after I get everything set up. Currently, I have to figure out how to install a theme on wordpress. I've researched and cannot get it to work.

Right now, my landlord hasn't cashed my rent check and this is making me nervous. I will need to pay him July than I will be pretty much out of money.

It feels like I did something wrong. But, I don't what. I could really use a break right now.
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    1368 days ago
    "Relocated from everything I love" sounds like the root of a lot of the problem. If there is no joy, it's hard to be positive. Selling is hard - if someone is pressuring you, there is something in the back of your mind that screams "no". Put you first.
    1369 days ago
    You are where so many of your generation is right if that is any comfort. You have not done ANYTHING wrong; I guess we are the ones who have let your generation down. You are the first generation to have the realistic expectation that you will never be able to replicate the lifestyles that your parents have had. The reasons are myriad; and depending on your political slant, but maybe we can all agree there is plenty of blame to go around.
    BUT you lost 100 pounds! You have a degree in something you are passionate about, and good at! AND you are obviously hard working and motivated. The world will turn on it's axis a couple of times, new days will dawn, and things will start to break your way. Hang in there!
    1369 days ago
    ((((HUGS)))) Wish I could snap my fingers and make thing better for you. **SIGH** Just know you're in my prayers and thoughts. So sorry.
    1369 days ago
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