Monday, June 23, 2014
Last week I saw my therapist. It was a tough session but one I needed to have because we discussed some things that were hard for me to hear. One of the things was how she felt like I did not fully commit to the things I am working on. She used a great analogy of how I dip by foot in the water and then run away because it was too cold. I try, I just don't "fully commit".
No where else could this apply more then to my weight loss journey. I started here on Spark in March of 2009 but didn't really start using it unit January of 2010. In January of 2010, I set a goal to lose 38 pounds by November of 2010 and I did. But it kind of stopped there, just like it always does, because I did not fully commit. Since that time I have gained some of it back, lost it, then gained some of it back again, made excuses, because I am not fully committed. My biggest excuse is that I have not been able to let go of the emotional significance food plays in my life. I have made some progress but I have not fully committed.
Over the weekend I gave being fully committed a lot of thought and really thought about how being fully committed to living a more full and happy life without relying on food for emotional support goes hand in hand with losing the physical weight. I can't do one without the other. That is where "Dig Deep" comes in. I have been reading a book called "The Gifts of Imperfection" from Brene Brown and in it she talks about what "Dig Deep" means (these are my notes not direct quotes from the book):
D - Deliberate in my thoughts and behaviors through setting my intentions
I - Inspired to make new and different choices
G - Going to take action
It is time for me to fully commit to living a more healthy life, to commit to an end to emotional eating and to lose these last few points once and for all.
Today I updated my status indicating that I am ready to fully commit, so that is my intention for this week. To fully commit to dealing with my emotional need for food. This week I will be working on changing one behavior a day that leads me down the path of my emotional need for food.
I am ready!!!