Wednesday, June 18, 2014
Today was a pretty good day. I've been feeling really anxious and worried about work, though...or lack thereof I suppose would be a more accurate way of putting it. I'm also starting to detox, since I'm at the end of my second day of Phase One. I've been headachey and kind of blah, my stomach feels a little queasy, etc. Anyway. I need to try to not stress about work. I have to stay positive. I can't give up and stress too much. I have to stay positive, and keep doing everything I can to get work. I just feel so bad. I can't really plan anything with Daughter because I have to keep my schedule open in case I get a call about work. I'm afraid to spend any extra money, even on gas to get somewhere. I'll just have to do some thinking about what we can do to have a good time.
Ok. Gotta stay positive, but I'm switching gears before I go crazy with nerves.
I've been watching a couple shows tonight with Husband about cults. His family kind of started their own cult several years ago, and things have been particularly crazy over there the past few years. Maybe I'll tell that story, but not today. These shows are interesting, and relevant, but are really not helping with my anxiety. I also watched a few episodes of Judge Judy earlier this afternoon, and they did the same thing. Usually, those types of shows are funny to me...but I guess I was already in that preoccupied, anxious mindset and my nerves were just feeling tense.
Gah! Really? Talking about my anxiety again. Geez. Trying to move on. I guess I will be meditating tonight.
So here's my run-down for today.
Phase One, Part Two -- Day 2
Breakfast: crunchy peanut butter, lime La Croix, coffee with sugar-free French vanilla creamer, Truvia.
Lunch: small salad (mixed lettuce, tomato, cuke, ranch dressing), small Wendy's chili, one slice of cheddar cheese, sour cream, hot sauce, sparkling sugar-free Arnold Palmer (half lemonade-half iced tea).
Dinner: two turkey sausages, "beer 'n brat" mustard, sauerkraut, steamed green beans, I Can't Believe It's Not Butter Spray.
Dessert: sugar-free blue-raspberry popsicle.
Snacks: roasted chickpeas (seasoned with olive oil, spices, and salt), sugar-free strawberry-banana Jello with sugar-free Cool Whip.
Progress: lost 2.8 pounds!
This show is unbelievable. Some people are just flat-out INSANE. Crazy. Beyond belief.