So I have done some reflection on my life the last couple of weeks.
One of the biggest changes I want to make in myself is not thinking about how fat I am almost every waking hour. When I get up in the morning I don't get to pick out clothes to wear because I like them. For the last couple of years its been because they are the ones that fit, or make me feel less fat. This I want to change.
My health is my biggest concern. I work in the healthcare field. I take care of people that want to make their overall life better, and they have taken the steps in that direction. One thing I stress to people is if they want to make a difference in their life later, they need to start now....Doctors really are worst patients (until now) This, I want to change!
My daughter is 3 almost 4 now. I am to the point of getting to take her on rides. I used to LOVE roller coasters and carnival rides. I am too big for most of them. So Jarrod (my wonderful amazing husband!) gets to take her on the rides and she will remember the wonderful time she had, with Mommy watching... I don't want to just WATCH! This, I want to change!
Jarrod and Ali at one of the parks in our area.
We started a tradition last year of all the girls in our family going shopping before Christmas. I'm a size 24 and they are not. So while we are all shopping...it's usually in opposite ends of the store. This, I want to change.
I LOVE to ride motorcycles!!!! We have one that has some good "get up and go." I feel ridiculously huge on it. Its not a tiny bike, either. Me and my husband don't get to go on rides together because I feel too heavy to ride on back. I still take it out by myself, but I want that bonding/riding time with him. This, I want to change.
If someone asked me to make a list of what I think about myself....WOW...not sure I'd want to read it. I am so hard on myself. Constantly worrying what other people are thinking. Thinking the worst of myself. A very wise woman (my beautiful mother) once told me, "Nine times out of ten, what you are thinking in your head is always worse than what actually happens." She is so right. Me thinking positively about myself is something that not only I want to change, but This...This, is something I HAVE to change.
No one can take these steps but me. I KNOW the correct things to eat and do. But if I don't take responsibility for me, my actions, and my ability to LOVE me...than that's it friends. I go through life as I am now. This is not an option, and this, I want to change!
We are so much more than we think we are! Keep up the good work!!! You can change this!