Wednesday, June 18, 2014
There is a principle in psychology which I forget the exact name of, but the gist of it is- the determination of your level of happiness or satisfaction is not what you have but the difference between you have and what you THINK you SHOULD have. When I got back from vacation I was hoping that I had gained no more than one or two pounds, but I had stayed the same and I was ecstatic. Then two days later, as Slenderella had guessed, I found that I had actually lost two pounds. To top it off, that last two pounds put me at 180. Things were looking fabulous. Then my mind started running. Wow if I can go on vacation and eat out every day and still lose weight, now that I'm home and back to my routine - I'll lose even more ......I immediately started thinking that the 170's were just days away. I started thinking that I had started losing weight a bit more quickly now that summer had arrived and I was outside more. Well, now that I've been home three weeks - same weight. I have also been very active and staying on track with eating. Now I'm not happy. Forget about the previous loss - by my calculations I SHOULD be in the 170's! So what is it about these round numbers? I stayed at 200 for what seemed like forever. So, I'm back to realizing that I am going to keep losing agonizingly slowly. Based on what Kanoe said in a blog I have to start learning to love the journey.
Another mind thing is that yesterday I was going out for my morning walk and my neighbor started raving about how great I looked and how great I was doing. She sees me go out for my jogs and walks and she wondered how I could do that all of the time. I had on my running capris which have a stripe down the side and make me feel very slim and I also feel very fit when I start on my run. (Less fit at the end). So all of this made me feel good. But I still have to remember that I am clinically obese (even though my dentist told me, you're not fat!) I can't rest on my laurels or I'll be resting on fat laurels. Praise has always been a double edged sword for me- is this weird?
So here's what I'm telling myself for today. Forget about any time frame and just keep on doing what you know works and love what you are doing for itself and not for where it is taking you. Have fun. Enjoy the journey.