Tuesday, June 17, 2014
I have 109 days to whip myself in shape for my wedding.
A friend of mine were talking last night about pictures on FB of daughters and their fathers on Father's Day -- most of them were the girls in their wedding dresses. We both *semi-shallowly* went on a bender about how fat arms look and how I don't want my arms to look fat in pictures.
This is silly. I know it is silly. The pictures I took on May 4th are a reminder to me that I don't want to look like that. I did all this work to lose the weight and get smaller, make my arms smaller, go through a pretty extensive skin removal surgery ordeal, just to make my arms look smaller...
What I want to know, is when the heck in history did women get so focused on their arms? I know this isn't a universal issue. Some women obsess about their butt or their thighs... I obsess about my arms. I have to get it outta my head that I'm not good enough or small enough.
In positive news, my tracking of food and walking has helped my weight. I'm down from 207 to 203.5. Moving in the RIGHT direction. I need to have a party when I get to Onederland again. I never thought I'd be above the dreaded 200 again. But I slipped. Repeatedly... often into a bag full of french fries.
I'm trying to eat better. Be better. Do better. Live better. I don't want to die early. I don't want to be a heavy momma. I don't want to get diabetes and heart disease. I don't want it to hurt when I walk (my hip joint is killing me again). I want to run (haha, well not really) -- I want to be able to be active and live.
So dang you fatty sugary foods... I'm opting to ignore you for a bit and indulge slightly.
In wedding news: we booked a Photo Booth -- we booked our AV equipment (no DJ -- just an iPad and a mic) -- we have our invite color scheme and font down -- we're working on a manageable guest list -- my mom and I are making our own living centerpieces out of succulents -- and I found a dress for my engagement photos! Whew.
I keep trying to make progress since I'm not working that much. In Chemistry news, I have to completely design and organize a chemicals stockroom that makes it logical, safe, and orderly. It is currently an unsafe cluster***k. I'm reading up and trying to follow protocols and guidelines to make this safe. Its a lot of responsibility. And it worries me. I want to do it right, so I'm going to ask for help.
So here's to taking care of myself, and staying on track!