Tuesday, June 17, 2014
Tonight is my 17 year old's graduation dinner and I can't believe the day is HERE!! It's been a challenging road to arrive here - but tonight it will be celebrations of endings and new beginnings.
While she is not sure what's next - education and learning is truly a life long lesson. If she decides to take a year off before pursuing something else - then I'll support her - I just told her she has to do 'something'.
With that - my youngest is done for the year too even though it officially ends on Thursday. I'm not sure if she will pass her year - but whatever happens we'll deal with it. We visit the day treatment program on Thursday to see what that will be like for her in the Fall.
I haven't blogged for a bit as I've been dealing with some 'stuff' still on the home front. On Saturday - I had someone come banging on my door and run (it was late). On Sunday night someone threw a rock at the kitchen window and broke it ... however, after seeing how it broke - I can see how the property manager is questioning how it happened. I HOPE to GOD my kids are not lying to me about it. The outer pane of the window is not broken while the inside pane is broken so he thought it was broken from the inside. My kid swears she did not break it - and she was visibly upset about the incident and called the police to report it as she heard the name of one of my youngest's former friend being called out. I looked briefly the night it happened (it was after midnight) and saw what looked like the screen being pushed in but the property manager said it wasn't. I saw the rock on the lawn... I just feel sick inside with all of this stuff going on.
I truly hope that as we graduate and changes come about for my daughters' lives - so too will change come into our lives where we'll find peace and happiness again.
Dealing with two girls who are teenagers is one thing - but dealing with two anxious, depressed and hurt girls is worse. They both refused to call their father for Father's Day as he has not been in contact with them at all and of course won't be here for her graduation. I know he will be upset that they didn't call but HE hasn't called or initiated contact in months. It's heartbreaking really.
I look ahead to the future and pray for both girls to heal and pray that they will lead happier lives.
In my own news - I'm extremely busy socially and enjoying it. I have not been so 'on program' with the busy-ness but I'm doing my best to maintain a good healthy balance given all the stressors I'm dealing with.
So here's to Graduation Day and focusing on the positives that represents!! Proud mom here!!