Well, itís been a while. As some of you may have read in my last blog, I took the important step this year of realizing & admitting that I am an alcoholic & had lost all control of my drinking.
Since then, I had relapsed, but am now very proud & grateful to be 70 days sober today. I have been attending AA meetings almost daily & I canít thank the program or the people in it enough for saving my life. I wonít be one of those zealots who goes on & on about it, but if anyone reading this has questions, Iíll be more than happy to answer in any way I can.
Having said that, my eating & exercise routines have gone by the wayside as I focused on maintaining my sobriety. Iím not quite ready to return to the 6-days per week at the gym & COMPLETELY clean eating routine I generally strive for, but this is me lighting the match to begin to get back to it. I picked up some healthier foods for work today as opposed to the childish, nutrient deficient ones & Iíve got a water with me instead of a soda (though I do have the soda somewhere around in case I want it later, because Ė hey Ė better than a drink, right?)
One particularly negative aspect of my training/nutrition lapse is that I have 2 obstacle races this month. Muckfest MS & The Savage Race. Needless to say, I donít count on placing in either of the latter, but at this point Iím just looking to finish & get me some fancy race swag!
When I had initially relapsed, I left my beaux of 3 years, friend of 7. Once I sobered up, I, of course realized my stupid mistake, but beaux, being the smart one, told me that he did not want me to move back in until I was at least 90 days sober (the first milestone in AA, after your 90, most groups celebrate annual milestones). This would give us both some much-needed time apart to think and decide whether we really did still want to be together. I can say with 110% certainty that 20-days until this epic landmark (longest time not-drinking in 12 years), weíre more in love than ever & I canít wait to get back to that tiny apartment with my best friend & my kitteh.
Iíve been living with my parents, who I am incredibly grateful for, butÖready to leave. LOL. As Iím sure anyone whoís had to move back in with their parents can attest, it all usually seems like a great idea in theory, but after the novelty of cheap or free rent, groceries, & nostalgia wears offÖyouíre ready to once again leave the nestÖ
Anyway, thatís my little update for now. Good to be back & Spark-stalk some old friends. Will be checking back in soon.
This is the man & I at my brother's wedding. Around 40 days sober here & I'm excited to be able to remember every SECOND of the event!