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I had Good Intentions...


Friday, June 13, 2014


The T from HALT was at play today BIG time - I am feeling so drained and tired from a week of about an average of 4 to 5 hours sleep...

And so the mind goes... the hunger grows, the cravings are there and I cave in - to tired to fight it mentally and actually enjoying the comfort of just being. It's just the easy way out I know and it's not what is going to get me the results I want.

My mind works the same way - I get into this mode and say 'one more night, one more day, one more treat/drink or whatever'... I say I will finish what I have and start fresh tomorrow and with good intentions that's what I said today and then I just was too tired to care... THIS is the pattern I must break.

So tonight I hope to get at least 7 hours of rest (my usual average is 6 to 7 and I'm good with that). I rarely am able to sleep 8 hours - it's just who I am.

I am planning on starting fresh - yet again - with this morning's blog and now this one - I'm posting to be accountable. I will be in bed early tonight because I am picking up my daughter at 8:30 instead of letting her come home around 10:30 which was the time she's been coming home most of the week.

I'm tired of fighting with her about curfew so we agreed to this time - and she's sticking to it. I'm also tired of nagging her about her school work - she has to hand in what she has on Monday and it will be what it is... she will either pass or fail her grade 7 and she'll have to deal with whatever the result is. We also have to return books on Monday - clean her locker out, etc. Busy times.

And so I'm fessing up and letting go for tonight. I'm looking forward to a good night's rest (I picked up my "Mental Calmness" tabs which I haven't had for some time and find helpful to rest better).

Thank you for your ongoing support SP friends...

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JANIEWWJD 6/15/2014 11:44PM

    Good luck in all that you do. Remember, just do your best, and that is enough!!!!
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AMBERLICIOUS88 6/15/2014 10:11AM

    It's ok. We are only human sweetie.

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CAPECODBABE 6/14/2014 7:25AM

    Hope you have a wonderful l(and fun) weekend, my friend. Slow down and do what you enjoy. xoxo

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NEW-CAZ 6/14/2014 3:15AM

    sleep deprivation is bound to affect the way you think Helene, the good thing is you're refocusing!

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KENDRACARROLL 6/13/2014 10:25PM

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Hope you'll get your well needed rest.

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4RASCALS 6/13/2014 9:46PM

    Hope you have a great weekend.

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KLMEIRING 6/13/2014 9:43PM

    I can relate. Thank heaven for fresh starts and good intentions.

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JANTHEBLONDE 6/13/2014 9:23PM

    Thanks for sharing! I hope you have a nice and relaxing weekend! Sending you lots of hugs!
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1CRAZYDOG 6/13/2014 7:28PM

    ((((HUGS)))) I hope you have some peace this weekend.



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