I can't vent on my fb page since my family reads it.
I just really need to talk or write things out.
I met a really nice guy online and he's nearly everything I need emotionally. We've not yet met in real life but he really wants to. Here's the issue, and I know it will make me sound like a heartless bitch: he's been in a wheelchair since a bad car accident when he was 17. So he can't give me what I need physically.
I need someone who can take care of me. I am having so much difficulty walking and I'm already my mother's caregiver. I don't need to go into another relationship knowing that I will be his, even tho he says I won't.
Now onto the next issue...I desperately need someone to talk to my kids & kind out WTF the problem is!!
I need someone who will be brutally honest with me & tell me exactly what they say but also to try to convince them to talk to me and forgive me, not because I deserve their forgiveness but because they deserve peace.
I'm fairly sure that my daughter thinks I abandoned her when she was 17--even tho I didn't & fully expected her to move in with me after she graduated from high school. I also thought that I'd have kept custody of my son & he'd still be living with me as well.
I am an emotional wreck and it's all I can do to keep from constantly crying.
I MISS MY KIDS!!
I WANT MY KIDS BACK!!!
My son forbade me from attending his high school graduation last year & my daughter wouldn't let me attend her college graduation last month.
I'm not a bad mother...even the guardian ad litem & lawyers told the judge that. I picked the wrong guy after their father.
Communication has always been an issue, or rather lack thereof. I think that if my ex would've talked more we might still be together. After a while, you get tired of feeling like a single mom when you've been married for 20 years.
IDK if this helped of not but I can't talk about this with my family since they always end up saying that I should've done things differently. I can't change the past, I need help with my future.