Tuesday, June 10, 2014
I do not have one... Just the thought of squeezing into my suit from last year gives me anxiety. I am pretty sure it still fits, but I doubt it would look flattering.
Problem is, my kids are BEGGING me to take them to the pool. and they are too little for me to just drop them off, while I sit pool side, well covered, and say have fun! They require me to go in with them... which means I would have to squeeze into my suit, and do the walk of shame.
I want to distract them with some less reveling activity, but kids are relentless, they wont let this slide. I feel like a horrible mom...
My husband tells me "don't worry about it, your getting exercise" (not bobbing around in the kiddie pool I'm not) "Don't feel anxious about it, just have fun" (right like thats a switch easily turned)
I hate this position I'm in... I wish I didn't feel this way about myself, because it's not only hurting me, it's hurting my kids. My anxiety over the bathing suit, will most likely result in us not going. And my kids crying disappointment. How do I explain to them I'm to ashamed of myself to let them have fun?