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For My Daughters day 18

Tuesday, June 10, 2014

Our oldest daughter has many struggles. She has made decisions in her young life that will have long reaching consequences. Yesterday we had an honest and devastating conversation. If I dwell on it I may crumble. How did she bring herself this point? In what ways are we as her parents responsible? Did I teach her to hate herself so very much? Are adoption issues a bigger part of the picture? Or are these just the cards she was dealt because somewhere deep inside her is the resolve to handle this? So many questions we may never know the answers to.

It's hard today to find a body positive. Maybe it's too little too late. Being active and healthy has always been a reality in our home. I did not get to 200 lbs eating junk/processed foods and drinking soda. Nope. Just good healthy mostly organic whole grains etc. Too much of a good thing is still Too Much. I am a very active person. Am a positive role model or one that they find they can not live up to. My youngest often says "That's because you're super human." No, I'm really not. Not even close.

So, where does all this leave me today? Prayerful, that's for sure. Hopeful? As always, because without hope there is nothing. and Grateful. Each day there is breath there is hope. Where there is hope, there is light.

Today's Body Positive: I am fearfully and wonderfully made. (Ps 139:14)
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    Hawkthree, EXACTLY! Our youngest was about 10 when I noticed she was still holding her folk like a toddler. As an preschool teacher, how did I miss this? I know it is a little detail, but just one example of all what we missed with her while pouring all we had into her sister.

    The oldest has not lived at home since she was 18, yet if you ask our youngest she will tell you that her sisters presence is felt daily.

    Love them both so much and wish there was more we could have know and or done.
    1378 days ago
    I raised two daughters and sometimes I feel as though one of them raised herself while we were helping the other.

    1378 days ago
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