Monday, June 09, 2014
... for all the wrong reasons?
I'm a young woman, 24. I want to get male attention.
Most people aren't willing to admit it, but right now, I'm feeling honest. It's why I wear makeup, do my hair, wear short skirts. To get attention. The feeling I get when someone eyes are on me is like the best kind of endorphin. I feel good, I feel sexy, I feel like I'm not competing.
But I do have to compete, because I am not the hottest girl in the room. Sometimes, thats all I want. Is to be the hottest girl in the room.
That is vain, selfish, and stupid.
But doesn't every woman want to feel that way for a little bit? I'm single, I want to know that when I go out, guys look at me and like what they see. I want to live while I'm still young. I'm tired of being afraid to live. To make mistakes. To do stupid things. But all I want right now is to enjoy it and have fun before I'm old.