Thursday, June 05, 2014
There is a point in every fat girls life where she sees a picture or something of herself and it changes everything. You always know you're big and you continue to get bigger, but it's not so bad, you're no SO big, though you find yourself noticing you are more often the biggest woman in a room. Your clothes are getting tighter, but you JUST took them out of the dryer. You go about your life eating, laughing, gaining, losing but it's not an issue, your weight doesn't inhibit your life - except you wouldn't be caught dead in a bathing suit, or shorts, or a tank top for that matter. But your kiddo is only 2, you still have an excuse to be this big, even though you wish you didn't have to watch so much of your life from the sidelines.
I am in a Master's program and I have to do short mock sessions and tape them. This week was eye opening. I could not believe how big I looked, that I was THAT BIG! What an eye opener to how delusional I've been as well as motivating me to get my a$$ back in gear and work harder!
I joined Weight Watchers about a week ago and so far so good. I like the program, I've done it before and been successful, and I lost 2 pounds my first week. Let's hope I just stay motivated and stick around for the long haul!