For the last six weeks, I gave myself a sticker on a calendar as a reward. It started with a challenge on one of my SparkTeams, and then I decided to keep it going by adding a sticker for everyday I got 11,000+ steps. Here is my calendar:
Look! I did it EVERY SINGLE DAY!
But I don't think I lost any weight this month. I'll find out when I weigh myself a bit later in the morning.
I've printed a new calendar, and I'm going to pick a new habit, which is, follow the No-S diet, and for the weekends, I only get a sticker if I respect the fourth S (sometimes) and only have one item that's S. This calendar only has 5 weeks on it, so the squares are bigger for my stickers.
I also will keep my 11,000 streak up.
The last thing I want to do this month is focus on improving my body image. I have been rolling this around in my head quite a lot. I need to figure this out, especially before I get older, because getting older is getting older. It's probably one of the most basic and natural things about life there is, but we have such a hard time with it. I want to look at my laugh lines and not only know they're because I laughed a lot, but appreciate that fact. If I have babies, I want to not just know that pregnancy changed my body, but appreciate the tradeoff. And if I never let go of my big belly, thighs and upper arms, I want to appreciate the good food, beer, and social times that gave me those things.
I think there are two aspects to this. One is the mindfulness, and the other is body image. I'm never going to be this young again as I am today. I look back at when I was 16, 17, 18, 21 and 22, etc. and I think, how sad I didn't appreciate that youth. But I'm still young, and I'm not getting any younger. I want to remember how this feels. I want to remember my life and my journey. So I need to pay attention to it as it's happening, and not let it just pass by. I'm working on that a little this month, but perhaps not focusing on it very much.
The other piece is learning to love my body just as it is and not to get hung up on being thinner or even cute. I have a few go-to place on the Internet I visit when I'm feeling more down about my body than usual (and noticing it!), but this month, I'm going to spend some time everyday actively looking for websites that will help me not just feel like I ought to love my body just as it is right now, but actually DO so. Luckily for me, on my first day, I saw it had been discussed on one of my favorite non-body-related places. Check this out:
I'll post things that inspire me throughout the month, if I can. I'm not the best about blogging, but I do think I should share, because I know this is something many of my friends struggle with, and it is very liberating to not be filled with self-hatred or frustration at my weakness. I think if I love my body, some weight loss will follow naturally, but even if it doesn't, treating my body like I love it and want to take care of it will improve my health, if not the number on the scale.